My Inner Child Was a Love Sick Kamikaze Pilot
finally passed the shallow breathing
of childhood sleepwalking
to this be-here-now moment
swan doved
hesitation-free
towards concrete
fearless
‘x’ marked the spot
thrust underwater middle of the sea
excavated tanked air
full of fear
looked a shark dead in the eye
flew a plane it didn’t crash
almost sank a sail boat
strolled on streets past midnight
in countries where told/sold
"these are the streets you should not take
a leisurely stroll on in the middle of the night"
made friends from strangers
made some strange friends
vampire street mime
analog railroad rider free & alive
horseback ballet dancer slow life explorer
sharp sassy psychic who saved my life
& the one who i just reconnected to tonight
who won all the prizes from the price is right
wormed my way into my hero's heart
fell in love with her squinty eyed smirk
i haven’t seen it all
& want to see more just have to remember that
ran through lab rat labyrinths of limerence
touch but don’t feel
avoid conviction
play out the moral routine
had heart chambers shattered loved but rarely chosen
been a bookmark at a gas station
soft sand island oasis vacation
just a resting place before migration
but finally found
dead quiet days humble home soft bed
tamed two beasts into makeshift children
a husband so ground solid
that whenever my earthquakes
no wrong can i do
even if i
destroy the world
-- Linda Vigil