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Life notes: a daily journal, my fears, my secrets, memos for friends, but mostly random junk... 'FRASNY' is archived randomly for safety concerns... Any questions or comments let them bloom with time and when we meet- lets talk... or real time at @antsintheocean - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 10/14/2026 waking up talking & laughing when we should be sleeping my favorite moments come from these good times - https://music.apple.com/us/album/all-the-good-times/1612533349?i=1612533353 10/13/2026 called home it was nice to talk - communication day talked to so many people today i wonder what the planets are up to? - all talked out then i get to talk to the one one person i ever really want to talk to 10/12/2026 monday breaking ice in the chipmunk birdbath playing guitar with a fucked up shoulder 10/11/20206 poetry class songwriting class i’m in over my head 10/10/2026 took a last minute poetry workshop with Megan Falley narrowing down the poem so much information - met a women said she was dreaming of meeting me wants me to read for her it was very nice meeting you :) - a quiet dinner on the mountain wasabi caesar first snow of the season talking to thomas every smoke break 10/9/2026 very expensive drinking mistake but made a couple of new friends - met a man said i had the look of a mercenary gave me a card if i wanted a job 10/8/2026 preparing for winter hoses up everything in storage 10/7/2026 torture working on my shoulder 10/6/2026 apple tree shopping planting the trees bought new running shoes 2 mile run knee held out fine 10/5/2026 paddle boarding ran into A at the library the coolest kid showed me some finger skateboarding tricks dinner met the coolest lady then the coolest train riding guy 10/4/2026 writing class writing at the bar and my torturer walks in celebration of life 10/3/2026 dj sorry i did not recognize you i met so many people i’m not an asshole i swear <3 10/2/2026 battling the skunk trying to get into my art studio for my art supplies cleaning up my long lost backup typewriter 10/1/2026 quick trip to take one last swim and hot tub the bubbliest bubble bath 9/30/2026 torture felt like ages crazy what one can get addicted to that you for bringing your dog 9/29/2026 moving books 9/28/2026 assembled a tile saw tried without reading the manual but somethings are hard when you don’t care youtube to the rescue - talked to my brother hearing the voice of love calmed my heart down i’m not sure why i feel so cracked opened 9/27/2026 poetry workshop day always so hard to wake up for a morning event -went for a scooter ride frozen think my cold might of took a turn for the worst 9/26/2026 laying low one two and then way too many drinks slowly drowning my way to the depths of the eyeless marine levels of life 9/25/2026 dinner w/ b even after all these years are we your closest friends - my lonely heart will go with you anywhere to make you happy - many years returning to the local dive bar tall men now short how proud can you be walking around with a ballon full of drugs 9/24/2026 writing trying to wanting something not too sure what - ss, thank you for trying to get me out of my early cocoon i promise we will meet up soon & dance the night away <3 9/23/2026 bad news always arrives when everything is almost perfect 9/22/2026 reading cleaning up random stuff before winter low energy fevering - getting sick again baked an apple pie cleaned through the tiredness 9/21/2026 hungover slept until 1pm napped until i had to go torture day fully sober finally pain threshold exceeded catching up on each others lives i missed you :) 9/20/206 ani zoom meeting writing class postponed working on bike - new ‘wants to be friends’ got me out of the house to the corn dog dazes made a few new friends “i know you because of your hat” :D a new stalker ran into to old friends subject of so many old desires never met up "with wants to be friends" drank & smoked way too much 9/19/2026 garage sale hopping just bought toys 9/18/2026 bike shop lego store lunch date thai take out good to be home 9/17/2026 pool day dinner topped off manhattans is a dangerous perk for being liked by the bartender 9/16/2026 studio day didn’t make anything :( 9/15/2026 writing, trying to write 9/14/2026 reading a bunch of poetry 9/13/2026 first wood stove fire of the season 9/12/2026 baked a chicken 9/11/2026 slept in but just barely 9/10/2026 fevering in bed so good to be home 9/9/2026 leaving seattle 6am alarm i have to remember no flights before 1pm because what the fuk walking the streets felt like fancy homeless followed to the metro but left alone started sneezing & snot galore arrived back to home town airport “hey lady in the hat welcome back need a ride back into town” <3 & then running to friends shopping for dinner <3 and then being so happy that home is home 9/8/2026 slow morning looking for UCL game at local pubs no luck fuk streaming subscriptions i’m giving up totally on watching soccer on tv went shopping then drinking and then shopping again bought some very expensive boots then broke the boots in i’ve never felt so tall or sexy :D taking a mid day nap is a must these days bus ride almost have the hang of seattle public transit dive bar skee-ball with my dear friend it felt like the good ole days drinks and some laughter made a new friend - hi eddie! dinner - gbot craving a thai dish he saw on a local menu (we made in a cooking class on our honeymoon ) no-one knew what to think on us on the bus 9/7/2026 woke up early for hotel breakfast but still missed it hotel change different world shopping - amazing new fuzzy mules pizza at friends house thanks for the good food fun time and being so lovely <3 9/6/2026 goldie tokimonsta w.i.t.c.h. met the band in the elevator of the hotel asked if they were a band “witch band are you in?”…. w.i.t.c.h. band lol 9/5/2026 peaches bikini kill sera cahoone hannah & ad-rock speak-easy walked into the speakeasy we snuck away to to get out of the rain noticed my t-shirt :) 9/4/2026 1 hour flight 1.5 hour commute to hotel ;( friends band playing in ballard friend not there replaced WTF still had a fun time figuring out how to ride the bus 9/3/2026 enjoying our last day together at home not sure when i’ll be back but soaking it all in chipmunks orphan twins deer husband who i can’t sleep without 9/2/2026 rainy day quick trip to pickup motorcycle talking bmx with the shop guys 9/1/2026 laundry day still thinking... pretty out of it after torture day (i need to recap daily not a week later just got super busy) 8/31/2026 martini lunch some writing booking last minute travel thank you for fixing me & advice of “set boundaries” i’ll miss you this next month bon voyage <3 8/30/2026 studio day still contemplating if i should explore creating art with another 8/29/2026 could of stayed in bed all day ate too much basque cake massage nap cuddle ghost or critter in the studio walnut ink in process tipped over patching holes 8/28/2026 hotel stay it needs to be 2 days from now on new coffee place shopping chiro reset toy store art store so good to be back home made amazing stew 8/27/2026 pool day making new friends taking shelter from the eclipse 8/26/2026 organizing the art studio loading the rukus to have a recall serviced 8/25/2026 R.I.P. Dolly <3 - cleaning the art studio mostly just smoking & listening to my dolly albums 8/24/2026 recovery from emotional storm sleeping in a sweaty heap cuddled together tightly bonded forever gasping for air reset jump started love i’ve never felt this tired before 8/23/2026 what a mood brink of separation crying talking loving reconnected “who would we be if not us?” 8/22/2026 temptation fear it and ignore or total surrender why now? - travel plans planned not really looking forward to it 8/21/2026 picked up my new bike loved the guys at wheatons i like that they love fashion & music & feel safe like cool older brothers - searching for lunch reading menus to you as you drive stopping at the last place to eat before making it home homegrown salad, margaritas & pizza wiped out and glad to be home the army of chipmunks is growing - i made the best wonton soup wanting to write but lost my favorite travel pen and pencil got to stock up making “if found stickers” need to make this page: lindavigil.com/found 8/20/2026 waiting all day for a mis-directed fedex package giving up - making the evening a pool night getting watched at dinner salty cream cherry melting soft serve ska - dancing & sweaty old friends impromptu ladies night another night of too much smoking too much drinking & tons of laughter new stalker or new friend your boldness was very bold the keywords to all my buttons i usually don't give my number to strangers... 8/19/2026 laundry & martini lunch re-organizing my art studio searching for tiny treasures - torture day very much needed how tight can a thigh be? when torture is no longer torture thank you for still working on fixing me <3 - no bike riding for the rest of the week thanks for bringing me skittles & martini early to bed 8/18/2026 morning tea broke down crying what a mood i’m in being really liked for my calming nature is this the best description of me? by most people? my calm skips me & comforts those around me 8/17/2026 thrifting my ID checked buying beer she said “i looked beautiful in my id photo” <3 what do you say to that “thank you? you are beautiful……… too……. see you next time” 8/16/2026 am i a wimp if i don’t want to ride my bike in the rain? not sure where the day went baked some bread roasted a chicken 8/15/2026 maintenance on bicycles chipmunks so curious climbing all over tiny little assistants :D rode until my mcl was tired 8/14/2026 recovery shopping bought a bike to ride in winter new jewelry zia ring & alex sanchez piece! visiting friend watching the river from her couch hypnotized in to deep relaxation could of stayed there all night 8/13/2026 pool day but it was rainy running into friends on the street talking about our road trip how friends are doing in new cities made a new friend at dinner deja vu - i think we met before stayed out all night smoked way too much drank way too much laughed until sore talking pet psychics new place to crash in seattle <3 i love the chaos you brought glad you tracked down the dude who stole your phone safe travels 8/12/2026 found some documents that were missing it took tearing my office apart but found in the last place i looked then played guitar for the rest of the day 8/11/2026 another hard deep sleep that i was so in sleep mode all day ate a delicious peach took an all day nap drank a beer and took another nap i am so tired the chipmunks were in a mood chirping danger or mating i’m not sure 8/10/2026 slept so hard forgot i was home sleeping in my own bed stumbling to find the light stairs in a sleepwalking state - tortured to the max entire leg & moved on from there to my neck should of just said how much i missed you thank you for checking on the status of my stalkers - 9 chipmunks today !!! smoking my pain away in a zone of blissful grounding took a nap before bed 8/9/2026 running into an old band mate at the health food store hundreds of miles from home i was half zombie fully caffeinated buzzing from a fun filledroad trip so nice to catch up racing each other back home - chipmunks rushing my feet checking they still had water & that none of them met demise my heart has never felt fuller - cleaning water sources & hummingbird feeders - being home what a feeling 8/8/2026 long drive to missoula from boise minimal traffic lots of laughing had another amazing round of tacos & salsa stranger offered to share her burrito great being back in the "5 hour drive neighborhood of the homeland" interesting hotel super slippery shower almost took out my mcl again plonk grotto pie hole sleep what a great day 8/7/2026 staying another night in boise found out a friend moved on RIP lance you were one reason we love boise so much - record stores toy store - bought way too many toys :\ and offered a job! miso soup on a hungover stomach most delicious strawberry cake drank too much iced tea free wine rest of day nap charlie’s band walking the river hot but nice - the only reason i got gbot to boise lobster tacos and margaritas and parkers rye 8/6/2026 dead sleep woke with reminder alarm we had the jeep serviced last night waiting for greg to return made the best coffee drank 2 cups in the shower skipped breakfast half dead drive to boise ate the most delicious peach so so so juicy and sweet on the winding highway sticky hands sticky lips juice back in the land of traffic hand feeding gbot leftovers from dinner forgot that time changed and we lost an hour racing to make time just made it for ani sound check our own little private concert thank you ani <3 - making new concert going friends at dinner seeing local friends ramsey thank you for remembering us & knowing my drink order so nice to see you - i’ve become “the lady with the hat” i guess i should name “her” seems a little too soon i’ve always wanted a ‘linda jr’ - met so many friendlies inline for the concert talking like life just started in 2020 - bobbie so great to talk and thank you for loving music - random lady came up to me “i like your hand” so i held up my hand “no not that one” so i hold up my other hand “no” i like your ‘hand necklace’ :D - and then the reason to drive hundreds of miles an amazing ani difranco concert your not quite 100% voice made the night and the energy boise supplied i’d really like to hear the playback - went for a early nightcap misting breeze & rye drank one too many manhattans again - i really do love boise on our walk back to the hotel got to smoke with bubba & eric ! talking about montana & not meeting namesake penguins 8/5/2026 always hard to say goodbye thank you for the soft bed love you tons, see you next time - drive to walla walla had the most amazing taco & salsa visiting alec at the vineyard catching up and drinking delicious wine hotel fire evacuation trying to find the fire door a long shower & salty dog dinner at saffron - what an amazing restaurant nightcap at the hotel bar one too many manhattans smoking & walking lonely streets of cities that are way sleepier than i have ever been making love until neck twist snapped me backed to reality ‘asking where the hell are we?’ :D drank an ice bucket full of water fell fast asleep 8/4/2026 slow morning espresso date hanging out until lunch back streets avoiding traffic ebike & lime scooter racing record stores tech advice family check in kayava lunch - one sip of bad beer keg broke me having brewery experience almost offered help antique-ing triangle fremont owner amber thanks for the whiskey tips a couple of fab manhattans thought hard about using the $20 that the record store guy insisted on me having to get a psychic reading surfing the bushes pizza place cocktails trying to heard a crowd a full time job to decide on what to have for dinner gbot hungry & frustrated smoking walk & pub nightcap 8/3/2026 macchiato & pastries iced pistachio milk latte jittery as fuck record store rounds shopping margaritas & tacos searching for parking - walking to dinner my laid back walking barley keeping up with the city speed great dinner nice drinks giving minimal advice on life paths - open mic nightcap being a stranger that is known late night smoking walk looking for jimothy - made it home before curfew :D singing to our hosts the song we heard before going to sleep gbot thought i was making up the lyrics https://music.apple.com/us/album/both-sides-now/541488092?i=541488105 8/2/2026 espresso’d to the max thai food the waitress loved me wanted to know my life story wants to visit montana now ‘:) she made an amazing lychee martini - ani sound check! fun chat & was able to deliver my gift pre-show cocktails at the pizza bar the crew where rocking my playlist made amazing cocktails to go for our line time fighter jets showing off no one even cared just waisting money new friends eating candy from strangers the kexp booth asked gbot if he was the guy with the lady in the hat :D - amazing concert friends 1st ani show trying to find food lady at bar said she saw me at the concert said i met her friend who loved my hat i met so many people what a great fun day 8/1/2026 spokane record store rounds gifted an emmylou harris record guy wanted to know if i had a record said i should make one for the next time i come in :D - https://music.apple.com/us/album/one-of-these-days/5560150?i=5560035 - bigfoot appreciation everyone wanted to see the inside of my hat - fun lunch date never-ending margarita forest fire phone alert so loud evacuated from our lunch date crazy windy thinking of you spokane <3 - continued on to seattle the weather cooled off - s, thank you for letting us crash - made the neighborhood rounds at dinner met a nice lady who was also singing along to the background music loved getting to know you - pub nightcap w/ hipsters giggling until my ribs hurt walking the neighborhood trying for a jimothy sighting only saw a rabbit and a cat 7/31/2026 waking early from deep dreams of forgetting to pack my most important items went on to pack way too much stuff forgot my lucky coin driving to spokane carsick for the 1st hour piano man dinner metal concert at knitting factory - dying wish nightcap whiskey bar walking around downtown smoking met a cousin who wanted to bum a smoke 7/30/2026 running out of time bouquet of dried flowers - probably won’t happen letter of everything i’ve always wanted to say - a maybe gift of knickknacks -all ready still need to pack my suitcase - chores for our nature friends leaving water for neighbors to replenish 7/29/2026 slept in rushed martini lunch torture day went hard always love catching up one of my favorite days of the week - can barely lift leg endorphins are in space flying high drowning the ache with more martinis 7/28/2026 laundry in the wild west maybe it was precognition that your old girlfriend from spain thought that everyone needed to pack to be safe while washing clothes 7/27/2026 handwritten letters with the most perfect gift thank you for knowing me so well 7/26/2026 lunch party catching up on the gossip so out of the loop broke a martini glass & i wasn’t even drinking a martini :( - sad to find out that a friend died & we didn’t even know i was just thinking of you when i was moving our artwork around i thought of you the day i almost died how you saw it in your minds eyes - loved talking about where we should go next - chipmunk fest glad you love them as much as me 7/25/2026 deep cleaned the kitchen guests coming tomorrow my tooth & jaw are still sore from all the novocain & handling - catching up with old friends spent way too much time talking on the phone - coyote crying night vision walking in the woods to protect the twin fawns who’s momma is missing - itchy from one mosquito bite 7/24/2025 momma is missing the twin fawns are on edge gbot & myself are on edge we care so so much for the wildlife that it scars our hearts 7/23/2026 procrastination dentist 3x novocain waiting & more waiting 3 minute fix of a skittle broke tooth now my face feels like it is melting 7/22/2026 found my office desk organized the record collection i need more space time to build some more record selves / shelfs - guitars tuned recording console freed everything ready in studio v except for me - i like that you are checking in on me from wherever you are in this world it warms my flickering heart one day our paths will intersect again 7/21/2026 pool day “peeper” the chipmunk watching through the bushes - ants on skin trying my hardest to just be let them map their way over & around my inconvenience tiny legs rushing towards the sweep of destiny 7/20/2026 martini lunch then another one because my time table was wrong torture 7+ days a little too long of a detox felt half like myself unappreciated reality & poked backed to center 7/19/2026 stayed home how boring a final was that? at least i got to see messi cry - felt like a box office with people looking for guest list access “sorry - i can’t help” 7/18/2026 sleeping in your own bed is the best slept amazing found my ring! it was twisted up in my hat bandana !!! decided to go back to the festival met part of the search party they were so happy my ring was found - met the partner of my hat maker i love that he loves my hat so much so many do! thank you for creating such a fab hat for me <3 - dodged people all day talking about eng-fra got home watched game until i fell asleep - https://music.apple.com/us/album/favorite-fear/1825934422?i=1825934428 7/17/2026 slept really well coffee at the park guest listed for the festival went early baked in the sun drank a lot of light beer lost a ring to the festival gods 15+ people nearby got on their knees raking the grass in search lady dug through the trash with me thank you all <3 - found a dog “pete” running down the middle of the road brought him home & searched for his people gbot met the neighbors realized the house is no longer dog friendly and that i’m not ready for a crazy fun dog found his parent and the dogs name was actually pete!!! 7/16/2026 pool day friends band in town fun concert in a furnace freezer bar late night dinner with band waitress wanted to know if i was famous :D greeted in the alley “Linda is here!!!” closed down the northern slow sweaty walk home 7/15/2026 lego flowers watching soccer - waiting long line of traffic - package posted - chesterfield likes touching my toes when i smoke on the patio mamas nose print on the back door window 7/14/2026 cold rainy day - watching pretty boring soccer - checking the mail just in time before return to sender - tech support texting - taco tuesday 7/13/2026 sleeping in until my body is too sore to sleep - i’m sorry i got mad at you my expectations were daydreaming - https://music.apple.com/us/album/tell-me-what-you-want/1784008448?i=1784008450 - bloodshot eye eye patch depth perspective focused on everything i haven’t done if my head stopped throbbing i’m not sure of what i would think of 7/12/2026 like clockwork asking for a bailout summer is my least favorite time of the year - shape of my face just before i need to cry - too tired to leave the country i wanted to see the beaches cross the border & be a tourist push through the stampede crowds one of many concerts i’ve missed because of exhaustion getting older with something wrong with my body - like t - said this weekend: “when is that sun gonna fucking set” 7/11/2026 every time i want chinese food the local place we go to is closed a small time town - drive just past our house for 5 hours for a craving? didn’t make it just ready to be home again 7/10/2026 happy anniversary gbot! 22 years !!!! so crazy & more in love everyday - https://music.apple.com/us/album/sea-of-love/1589243447?i=1589244271 - the longest day ever leisurely breakfast 6 hour pool day watched the game leisurely cocktails & dinner another late night of dancing - meat tenderizer attachment for massage tool “strap it on and tenderize the meat” - deja vu “are you the body guard?” “no the i’m the husband” “what’s your name?” “are you - name redacted?” “um yeah” “you asked to be my facebook friend“ 😂 - getting hit on until i say i'm celebrating 22 years of marriage tonight - https://music.apple.com/us/album/augui-gracieuse/1584398243?i=1584398453 7/9/2026 ate a bowl of cereal felt like i was gonna die - we think of each other all the time just say so after the fact everything reminds you of me nothing makes me not think of you - cocktails & meetups and misses seeing friends just passing through on tour - https://music.apple.com/us/album/the-climb/6768903693?i=6768903705 - i love our late night walks home 7/8/2026 just about asleep earthquake - shocked awake thunder right out the window - martini lunch torture big man open shirt 1st time i’ve seen an outie i liked how strange the interaction was “i’ll let you get back to whatever is happening here…” - set on fire - found a dead chipmunk chesterfield, chester or chesterton cried for the loss of a true friend smoking on the patio the wind picked up i cried more 2 chipmunks came sat next to my toes they knew i told them i was so sorry for the loss of their friend - then the news of a human friend that has moved on R.I.P. 7/7/2026 hopeful happy wanting so bad did not turn out - https://music.apple.com/us/album/shark-smile/1751255074?i=1751255078 - worried about the baby birds they look dried out, hungry & quiet - released my iliacus hot yoga loudest release pop since my knee was destroyed i was afraid to move for a moment 7/6/2026 watched g clean the pool my naked pool man <3 - my teams lost terrible games disappointed heavy energy friends sending sympathy :) thx 4 caring about my hobbies - hummingbirds consuming feeders so quickly 7/5/2026 soccer napping pulled some weeds slept so good wanted pancakes drank coffee felt like crap until dinner bit by a tiny bug right on the nipple felt like fire - https://music.apple.com/us/album/fire/1093590018?i=1093590038 7/4/2026 drastic change in blood test results looking better! another month of purging my system detoxing from years of steroids get the shakes sometimes test again soon - tired sad & glad at the same time & hopelessly desiring an unobtainable - venture firm wants to buy the record label i’d sell for no less than 3 million - hummingbird knocking on my sunglasses air tickling my noise - https://music.apple.com/us/album/independence-day-2023-remaster/1741473742?i=1741473755 7/3/2026 stocked the freezer with chocolate chip cookies baked brownies pulled weeds planted the next round of salad mix sat in the sun smelling dill - made way too much potato salad - thinking & writing - https://music.apple.com/us/album/fig-in-leather/1125611059?i=1125611108 7/2/2026 hbd little bro! 7/1/2026 smashed a spider half awake felt terrible couldn’t fall back to sleep - martini lunch torture thank you for releasing my hamstring & the addition to the ever growing bruise i’m glad you liked the gift just purging my office <3 - soccer! USA!!! - https://music.apple.com/us/album/lose-control/1878146560?i=1878146562 6/30/2026 bloodwork glad it was not at the crack of dawn still so hard to get out of bed before noon but got out the door before 10:30am - https://music.apple.com/us/album/space-time/1254129591?i=1254129600 - quick shopping wanted donuts but sold out everywhere !! guy that saw me buying skittles “you are too sweet already you don’t need anymore sugar” lady “she’ll melt in the rain” 🥰 - deep cleaned the tub - laughing these days until i can’t stop crying 6/29/2026 found my favorite pen & a whole cache of flavorful chapsticks - napped all day woke when i heard any cheering i’m so tired - hbd s! love u tons <3 6/28/2026 slept in way past my alarm can sleep so deeply when it rains - knock out time! - very snacky couldn’t satisfy my cravings - cleaned my office organized my travel camera bag - searching for my favorite pen not sure how long it has been missing because i have not been writing thinking ft collins used it to write the tip 6/27/2026 baked an apple pie watched soccer took a nap in pjs all day trying to keep my mind occupied dreamt again of the same dream world - https://music.apple.com/us/album/a-letter-to-my-younger-self/1777808141?i=1777808146 6/26/2026 coffee shocked me in to kundalini - friend walked up said my energy shifted “scared fully alive” - driving with the windows down in the rain - no camping party for me too tired the weather a little too rainy have the best bday r <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/run-the-road/1669525510?i=1669525512 6/25/2026 could’ve died today inches from a head on collision they ran a stop sign while we were in the passing lane screaming "fuck" gregory - god, i love you so much i'd do it all over again i'm so glad we are alive - https://music.apple.com/us/album/car-crash/1493241179?i=1493241401 - talking soccer to strangers at pool - shuttle guy remembered me your hat is very memorable - USA watch party stalker showed sat right next to me 😱 guy talking to me color of his new motorcycle “drab green- just like your hat” - saved by the tourist i was talking to at the pool! - cute guy fun talking soccer with you - new stalker thought she was the friend our friend was looking for her: “i have no idea who that guy is, you are the most interesting looking person here thought i’d follow you around until we could talk” 🤨 i was just dressed in a usa team jersey... - https://music.apple.com/us/album/weirdo-magnet/1886123887?i=1886123890 - b, glad we got to hang out i laughed too much & smoked way too much 6/24/2026 laundry day and packing - martini & soccer watching party - ran into friend i was dreaming about at the grocery store - torture old guy: “so you are the next victim” ;D extreme limits reached my quad & hamstring raw felt like i’m the one in the dog house :) - https://music.apple.com/us/album/tortured/1836290179?i=1836290202 6/23/2026 impermanence off & on feeling healthy few more tests - swedish death cleaning 6/22/2026 heard a strange sound thought gbot was choking to death turned out to be a mountain lion mid-day right out the back door momma deer freaked out running to save bambi guess i should pay attention to my surroundings instead of walking around with earbuds in 6/21/2026 dreamt of running on a beach stopped running mid-dream remembering my bum knee :( talking on the dream phone to dream friends who are dreaming on other planes now they wanted to meet up for chinese food boardwalk mall i’ve been to before looking for a restroom - summer cleaning because we were not home during spring - robin almost flew into my big head she built a nest in the juniper bush right by the back door 3 little blue eggs got to research the time frame until we can use the back door again - https://music.apple.com/us/album/birds/896424792?i=896424803 6/20/2026 fear of falling asleep but fell deeply once i gave up remembering how to breathe - love to laughing until i couldn’t stop crying ribs so sore eyes dried like salt from the sea low on electrolytes felt amazing after short nap - too many skittles watching more soccer - trying to write trying to find words - https://music.apple.com/us/album/words/1813848690?i=1813848702 6/19/2026 slept amazing late checkout coffee on the deck - backpack guy dog humping his leg pure happiness of a dog on a spring day - tacos for breakfast out of place with the vw locals - usa watch party drinking beer shopping indian food - https://youtu.be/EwLWNXFH2rg?si=pArPYNgsq6AeTSHC 6/18/2026 hawaii friends visiting kid loves gbot pool afternoon kids screaming & splashing - last SoftWave session tickled my left knee couldn’t stop laughing - welcome back from bartenders they missed us 😅 - watching soccer on a comfy hotel bar couch talking to tourists them complaining about special treatment i got - other tourist who uses AI for 90% work lawyer who lives in the town of our friend in ohio i liked your stutter :) - costly late night snacks slow 2 mile walk back to hotel watching the shuttle pass us 3x fantastic being back 6/17/2026 soccer morning in a time warp showed up too early for martini lunch date - torture session tightest quad ever bruised thigh i wonder if blue skin tans the same wish i remembered the fort your said to check out addicted... thx 4 checking the status of my stalker :) - https://music.apple.com/us/album/edge-of-the-earth/1701162686?i=1701163276 6/16/2026 chainmail my heart heavily it treads fortified for battle waiting wanting the onslaught to begin - https://music.apple.com/us/album/good-things/906073870?i=906076944 6/15/2026 buried at sea not cremated just parts of decaying flesh pound by pound thrown overboard day by day parts of me at the tip of antarctica the maldives the shores of easter island the highest waves on a boat in the bearing sea - https://youtu.be/OuHZLlAbt34?si=o0C8uE1lkPv1d69L 6/14/2026 shadows of trees in a forest slow movement gentle breeze green against deep blue sky shade of life i will miss most - took a test not pregnant - took another test most likely already dead 6/13/2026 named the new chipmunk - chesterfield :D - wish you remembered the word that you “thought i’d like” that made you think of me when i was gone fyi: i thought of u every other day... - watching futbol is my full-time job now - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nbvzbj4Nhtk - called home so good to hear the voices of the people you love - organizing & minimizing time to shift into 5th gear need to realize stuff is just stuff look out for my estate sale - spatchcocking dinner cooking brown rice for the first time since crembo died tears falling from my eyes & a need to finally fully release - gbot this morning "you finally seem like you want to live again..." now that i'm prob dying it is true i'm fearing death i can't fall asleep & then i wake up short of breath not remembering how to process air - https://music.apple.com/us/album/if-it-makes-you-happy/1440920951?i=1440920967 6/12/2026 slept so hard that my body woke sore more tired than it has ever been - waiting for the internet tech to show appointment was 9-noon saw him @ 1:30 guy was waiting on the road until 3 just sitting in his truck took 10 minutes to fix - happy 1st day of the world cup!!! - martini lunch back to my weekly torture sessions - i missed u so much so good to catch up i don’t talk so honestly & as much with anyone else - my calf is on fire hamstring released <3 - teeth cleaning right after everything good except my broken tooth which is fine do nothing, rebuild, cap decide by end of july “so easy to clean, keep doing what you are doing” :D - smoking on the patio sound of crickets, birds, wind chimes my chipmunk friend jumped on my leg think they missed me :) baby chipmunk - so tiny & cute - weeded the jungle we returned home to - watching game 2 of world cup homemade pizza 6/11/2026 van camping in the 1st KOA in the USA woke early birds so loud angry or happy beautiful none the less - so dehydrated yawned & cracked side of my lip - gas station coffee a beer for the road cashier looked at watch judging hard - windy rainy snowy passing lane madness - stopped at record stores in missoula get your copy at slant street or ear candy - followed a drugged out or drunk driver stressful - stopped for dinner a much needed leg stretch and margarita stop - got home to no internet felt like we had all the time in the world unpacked read in bed to stay warm 6/10/2026 1st day driving back home thai food to go leaving the hot brick streets of foco to the cold grey skies of montana windy as fuck so car sick & sad ready to be home but not ready to leave - should not of had that cherry slushy 80+ MPH i always think of my friend who traveled slow on horse back remembering & crying on I-25 - 2 car crashes one in town one on the highway so close to being in one - slept on edge afraid once again of death so much to do it probably won’t get done 6/9/2026 g’s last day in the studio i was so tired didn’t want to get out bed went back to bed after making g breakfast one last time watched hours of beekeeping vids - late lunch margaritas to go saying goodbye to my lunch friends laundry packing up - finally after all these years area 51 - we saved the world from aliens & zombies both 2 star generals high score 7 & 8 so so hot in the arcade - last cocktails at social for a year saying goodbye to more bartender friends - dinner at madre a happy welcome back i’m so addicted to the cafe manhattan and rib eye taco & gauc <3 - last whiskey tasting at whiskey the music was so off putting that we abandoned our final nightcap and went to bed early - https://music.apple.com/us/album/birth-in-reverse/1440942954?i=1440943108 6/8/2026 brunch art shopping napping with g watching lord of the rings - writing at the bar catching up with s <3 - arcade sauna area 51 failed mission - cocktails - my new bartender friends i’ll miss you - crazy lady hated yellow flowers pulling them out by the handful i know you are mad i’m mad too i would of asked her to stop but she was violently unapproachable https://music.apple.com/us/album/flowers/1702906527?i=1702906535 - dinner at madre so so so good - nightcap at the whisky - dancing in the parking lot my knee gave way it feels totally fine except the bruise my hat stopped my head from hitting the concrete 6/7/2026 slept 12 hours woke up once with greg screaming i screamed too room next to us probably called the front desk 😂 he had a nightmare that my poisonous pet snake bit him (i don’t have a pet snake yet…) - finally felt like i was not actually dying brunch nap love lunch margarita nap dinner drinks bed - another person thought i was lucy liu - all who said hi & asked who i was sorry i was so spaced out i have so little attention & energy i’m just a girl with a cool hat & a dying soul that is absorbing all the beauty it can - advice for life: -if you see an ad for it on tv don’t buy it or use it ever -cut loose everything that destroys your soul -love those who love you -spend time with those who spend time with you - https://music.apple.com/us/album/dangerous-feat-joywave/1443230682?i=1443230694 6/6/2026 i caught a cold so much snot spent the day in bed until my photo session - blinded by the light headache after flash not doing eyedrops suffering it - my body giving out - told the print "would outlast me - a minimum of 100 years" lady wanted a copy of my tintype thank you for thinking me beautiful if i wasn’t fading i would of loved that drink :( - carried my backpack of books in the smoldering heat back to the hotel almost heat stroke - laundry - water run - bed - dinner lady thought i was a famous LA hair stylist “do you cut hair?” yeah i cut mine when i’m drunk :D i look just like this stylist - got to find out who it is the bartender thought i was lucy liu - so tired straight back to bed 9pm - https://music.apple.com/us/album/if-i-ever-feel-better/696669435?i=696669695 6/5/2026 late night somehow started with kissing of my neck & 1 stiff manhattan delicious dinner at madre and talking lots of talking - got to sleep in with g slow morning slyce pizza for the studio guys talking jewelry listening to playback saying goodbye - for now to a&s - lady loved my jewelry asked if i knew who made her bracelet then met a destined new friend who also loved my jewelry & my finger splint ran into over and over so nice to meet you m :) - https://music.apple.com/us/album/heartbeats/89501668?i=89500804 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/anything-we-want/1462213924?i=1462213944 6/4/2026 took lunch to the boys in the studio fajitas from rio grande - so tasty i miss my studio daze - i’m gonna be model wear what you are wearing right now come back friday @ 3:15 - trading greg’s albums for vintage dictionaries and books - catching up with friend who didn’t know who i was until i took off my hat - rubi indi -cuz, truly you look like my mom if she was a man - aj made his 1st manhattan ever for me he was very proud - https://music.apple.com/us/album/this-lonely-morning/698140942?i=698140962 6/3/2026 get your greg grant vinyl record at all the foco old town record shops - homeless man loved my vibe & style - old men drinking scotch wanted me in their photo with the bartender :) “sorry, not trying to be creepers” when they left - kid invited us to a pride after party then found us at our local hangout talked jewelry and music because bluetooth went out at the bar wanted advice on everything - new robe and tarot decks 6/2/2026 early to bed late to rise finally feeling normalized almost forgot to write to my friend i promised to write daily - every aisle of target traversed while waiting for room to be cleaned - 2 margaritas & green chile stew - in much needed spanish refresher hola, thres unonueve limpear pie forvour kudasai - a new stalker wtf, i need to be more on guard give advice & get paparazzi at dinner 😵 - early to bed again 6/1/2026 stormy, slept most of the day one too many manhattans last night - caught up with my life coach - read tons of poetry - gregory got me out of the room for shopping, dinner & drinks - thank you lady for not believing my age my skin tip secrets - preserve with cocktails & resting bitch face 🙃 you were beautiful also 💕 - z, thx 4 loving music so much & for all the free mocktails 🔥 5/31/2026 friend got me out of bed museum shopping drinking mocktails - making a impression showing up months later & asked if you want your regular 🤯 - multitasking to the max - watching soccer & tennis listening to my friend play music on public radio writing chatting with my friend while eating & drinking - stranger to new bff asking for advice because my hat has all the knowledge she is in love with a younger man a married man who should she call? poly pagan added tons of music to her apple music :) thanks for the company making me blush calling me a beauty <3 - remembered again! bartenders with elephant memory - thank you pretty lady for the rose and the guy who found bigfoot for me 5/30/2026 is it brunch if it is 9 am and no melon? recognized & asked “where have you been?” :) - a bee in a honey shop “why do you have all my honey in bottles for sale?” 😭 my nose got all runny after sampling - asked today about a dozen times “where are you from?” identified as a native cousin! we are all one big family - nice girls who helped pick up my broken plates when the bag broke you are fab! <3 - a, congrats on ur master degree! - in love with ft collins! 5/29/2026 albatross my way to land i’m finally not feeling like i’ll puke did not sleep very much toss & turned another 8 hour day of driving https://music.apple.com/us/album/dramamine/1566175237?i=1566175251 - “welcomed back home” to a place you just visit often maybe it is time to move here i love this hotel - disappointment hit when my favorite bartenders moved on somewhere new m & d :( - https://music.apple.com/us/album/townies/1807870796?i=1807870800 5/28/2026 packing always last minute to the second if i forgot something does it matter? - i’m ready i need to start down sizing - trying not to be super car sick - counting roadkill to be able to write something interesting to my friend i promised to write everyday i was away - a duck trying to cross the interstate with ducklings was almost my stopping point - i might of seen bigfoot as roadkill - 80mph is a good distraction wild horses running - https://music.apple.com/us/album/horses-in-my-dreams/1440922247?i=1440922922 5/27/2026 2 bus loads of teenagers blocking the driveway when rushing out - late as always a field trip - right at our gate - torture today was the most intense ever just what i needed thank you for everything i’ll miss you these next few weeks <3 - dr d i’ll live life fully until the next appointments blood work ct scans whatnot thanks for taking care of me - i smashed an ant that crawled on my leg it was just reflex & i’m sorry crazy what we let by & don’t take blame for it fucking broke my heart somebody just fully smash me into my next reality - i want to eat pancakes with flavorful real strawberries - it is ok - https://music.apple.com/us/album/born-to-die/1440811595?i=1440811598 https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-feel-it-all/1444107540?i=1444107754 https://music.apple.com/us/album/theres-more-to-life-than-this-live-version/300205427?i=300205502 5/26/2026 appeasement - turkeys started mating at 3am and just kept going why i'm so moody today - did not get very much REM - cleaned & organized the van finally - zoned out for an hour cigarettes & judging my painting - almost “ran” up the hill from the storm my fear of death by lightning getting the best of me next time i should fly a kite face my fear - counted my pairs of socks 42 beer & nap while the storm passed - laundry left undone packing suitcase not done - if i’m dying i’ll find out tomorrow i love my doctor but hate going to the doctor at least i get my beloved weekly torture session before i find out - https://music.apple.com/us/album/just-an-illusion/1677645983?i=1677646293 https://music.apple.com/us/album/art-of-worry/1761811599?i=1761811879 5/25/2026 craving picked right from tree lychee - ate a pb&j and felt like i was gonna die - micro poem? how dye drips out of cotton tapestries left for dead out in the ways of the world sun baked frozen cold ripped apart by a gentle breeze - need to pack but cleaned house cleared out the fridge sat in my art studio smoking for hours worked on the painting, gave up read a book of poetry - think i broke my finger just when i'm getting back to playing the guitar :( - turkey mating dance 24/7 - LB, welcome back from your journey, i’m glad you are alive <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/finally-moving/294600592?i=294600655 5/24/2026 un-toasted bread with honey - is there a skittle shortage that i’m not aware of? - my knee is so/so after my first actual bike ride :( my hammy is mush back on the bike that goes nowhere - “you can be a skeleton with no closet - to get what you want, now is the time to slice & dice” - IE - chipmunks come swarming whenever i step outside 😅 - sweating in the sun sweating in the sauna - carrying around fire extinguisher like a baby just incase afraid the canvas i’m painting will catch on fire with all my smoking - a good crying session cut short with the need to write - wrote this micropoem - Bloom - https://music.apple.com/us/album/heart-has-to-work-so-hard/1895982147?i=6765531270 5/23/2026 my mood today: patch of dirt that never gets shade unless an eclipse, bird, ufo or cloud passes by - went to the laundromat washed thick blankets for upcoming journey & no serial killer insight :) - talked to the most beautiful woman that i’ve ever seen in my life at the grocery store today aesthetic or ethereal i’m not sure which she was hunting for the perfect cantaloupe canadian just visiting for the weekend my heart felt like it actually stopped beating & went into cocaine overdrive i can’t believe i've already forgot your name - https://music.apple.com/us/album/help-im-alive/1440945965?i=1440945967 https://music.apple.com/us/album/unhinged/1804119922?i=1804120141 5/22/2026 todays energy is wonky static electricity sparking everything i touch the tempo of all the breakfast music seemed slow and slightly altered - got another voicemail from a friend that is no longer in this timeline dude, next time tell me about the afterlife don’t play it off like it is just another day - ani, thx 4 the guitar lesson u r a fab teacher! https://music.apple.com/us/album/overlap-feat-sara-lee-andy-stochansky-new-york-n-y/1619341292?i=1619341594 my pinky is mush your finger scars are insane <3 "garden of kinda hard" :D https://music.apple.com/us/album/garden-of-simple/1880673195?i=1880673199 5/21/2026 is that bigfoot on the security camera or the stalker? too blurry to discern but now i’m paranoid & walking around like quick draw mcgraw - kooky eye 5 spiders released into the wild 1 cute little fuzzy grey jumping spider i wanted into make a pet - equal give & take to those who take everything & give nothing back - weeded the patio soaking up the sunshine - packed cameras & audio gear for the upcoming creative sessions - https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-guess-time-just-makes-fools-of-us-all/1760456744?i=1760457082 5/20/2026 second day of early rising - fried egg popped like a pimple habanero salt in the eye - early brunch martini - much needed torture session ur needle to the calf countdown has extended beyond time & space 3............ 2............................. 1................................................. &..................................................................done https://music.apple.com/us/album/time-warp/1609490013?i=1609490702 - thank you for listening about my stalker problem u dreaming of having to do patients notes on your day off 😰 i’m not sure how you do it wake at 5am 12 hour workday... huge 7$ heart u amaze me let’s have martinis soon & go dancing i'll even 2 step :) - M, thx for ur laughter & “opti-mystic” advice and handling my spiked endorphin mood so well: “finally fully trusting - getting over self limitations & abandonment issues” “playing the same game but on different fields” “get excited for the exploration of life” - was gonna work on my painting but fell asleep by the fire - https://music.apple.com/us/album/1-crush-nellee-hooper-mix/1442980495?i=1442980689 5/19/2026 early morning bloodwork sprinkle donut for comfort rationing rationality - not ignoring just have stuff going on - advice given to me “go into the forest...” i am already deep in the woods 😭 https://music.apple.com/us/album/like-i-used-to/1565570686?i=1565570687 - pt daily routine hamstring charley horse, fuck screaming at the world much needed release - https://music.apple.com/us/album/charley-horse/1662053320?i=1662053321 5/18/2026 indifference acceleration unpacking repacking writing nap by the fire pt workout red light therapy prepare for an early morning dr appt https://music.apple.com/us/album/till-i-die-feat-claudia-valentina/1847580792?i=1847580797 - this was the dmt stuff i was talking about :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I4JGLyrV7cQ - LB, thinking about you wish you were awake for your birthday i'll try to visit you in dream world tonight <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/turbo-dreams/960737549?i=960738394 5/17/2026 packed up the apt for the season found a trio of missing socks still looking for a knee sleeve ~~my debit card~~ and a pinky sized ring with a turquoise heart check your couch cushions, laundry baskets and jacket pockets please - ss, i promise to write to you everyday of our trip please stop sending pix of parasites :P - the color of kiwi, the fuzzy brown part - holding my hand & telling me i'm beautiful i'm totally smitten 🥰 - wishy-washy ludus because you are sure "fiction is better than the truth" https://music.apple.com/us/album/make-a-move/1042648446?i=1042648450 5/16/2026 puppies, the fluffy one 'petey' was so cuddly found out the puppy i wanted to adopt last month 'bruce aka abruzzo' was adopted & became canadian saw the cute little tan dog that got adopted at firebrand cocktail hour - responsibility vs availability - snowing & hail on the block party even people not in the race were running - H2, my soul is warmed with your love - H4, your cosmos are 🔥 i hope you do move to our town & teach me how to sail glad ur hands finally warmed up - u crushed me like a cigarette tonight i might not recover - talking parasites & flukes https://music.apple.com/us/album/standing-in-the-way-of-control/313238787?i=313238965 https://music.apple.com/us/album/ritual-union-maya-jane-coles-remix/455048195?i=455048266 5/15/2026 no meet ups before noon from now on but, True, so nice to get to know you more i love the art print - 10 hours of entertaining ready for a 2 week silent retreat one more day... - i like your idea of macrodosing me back to reality thanks for all the stories & laughter - congrats my love on your album release i’m your biggest fan & thank y’all for coming out and listening <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/free-to-believe/1889326364 https://open.spotify.com/album/1pEQXTZf0WbI6iNawLekXb?si=bo7TEJRzTGGkK0fid4A8NA - sorry i turned into a pumpkin at midnight my lightweight bladder full of club soda needed a 45 minute shower and my brain needed to read a book - SS, thanks for thinking i’m an "icon" i’m outside of the atmosphere with your compliment <3 - G, glad the surgery on ur arm went well. - https://music.apple.com/us/album/gloria/1038568061?i=1038568064 5/14/2026 i can hold my own until arm wrestling comes into play ur muscles were the size of my head - the ideas we have when our minds mesh - B, ur the best - “cosmo manhattan” my new nickname 😅 - when buying art feels like a drug deal, can’t wait to get to know you better <3 - A, i’ll have a beer ready for you when you cross that 5k finish line :D https://music.apple.com/us/album/dog-days-are-over/1440729743?i=1440729744 5/13/2026 fidgeted too much kicked out of bed slept on couch fell fast to sleep tight neck - martini lunch date tortured back to bliss my glutes are tender :) thx so much <3 - hope you come to the baker block party - K, making me laugh <3 - S, nice hearing your voice and talking about reality <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/love-is-the-drug/723878140?i=723878503 https://music.apple.com/us/album/my-fun/1736964516?i=1736964517 5/12/2026 think this is a start of a new poem? very drafty, i'm not sure everything in my life should be a poem? so it goes here (i like the title) title: 'paradise comes easily if you are already turned on' hours in the sun no phone no books no music nothing but naked watching ants skin soaking sun chipmunk tanning too sipping iced caffeine mint soaked tabacco sending s.o.s. smoke signals i guess the message was received uninvited utility man showed you rush to cover more naked than me “do your work & just ignore the naked lady...” sounds of saxophone making dogs howl crane circling at sunset turkey mating madness tbc....... 5/11/2026 my moms, thank you for getting me this far in life i love you the demands, insanity, comfort & safe-havens supplied shaping me into this person who is still treading along i hope you had a day to remember https://music.apple.com/us/album/mother-mother/1443898616?i=1443898877 - LB, thinking of you on your od journey in indefinite time shed emotion & pain come back please <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/dancing-with-the-devil/1558737908?i=1558737928 5/10/2026 thank you for keep asking me to dance sorry for always saying no you are really pretty & nice :D i'll def dance with u next time https://music.apple.com/us/album/its-me-on-the-dance-floor/1436538263?i=1436538275 - ladies who joined me smoking my ribs still hurt from all the laughing the sex tips & gummies <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/girls-just-wanna-have-some/1840289201?i=1840289203 - ny,nj,boston ladies really nice to meet you i felt famous with all the questions "my aesthetic is a magnet..." - B, what an outfit! what a great convo - staying out of the friendship beef - cute northern bartender thanks for the compliment & drinks you made me feel so gorgeous <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/sex-on-fire/1032178894?i=1032181382 - H2, thx 4 ur protection 5/9/2026 i can’t believe you are an adult getting bullied by high schoolers :( - talking about the cult that ties us together crazy we haven't met sooner hope your finger heals quickly - floating the river what a peaceful day 5/8/2026 what a night can’t believe you got us dancing to dunagan :D - dude, tmi on your barcelona vacation - started a bowling team 😅 ready to get back on the wagon - “i saw you dancing to the gray goo y’all were all sweaty & having fun” - guy in make out alley also the advice you gave “you want to make out with someone just ask them” :D https://music.apple.com/us/album/kiss-me/1163449953?i=1163449957 5/7/2026 casual romancer sometimes what you have to offer is not enough most people i know just want to bask in the comfort of my aura https://music.apple.com/us/album/messy/1743250148?i=1743250261 https://music.apple.com/us/album/what-ever-happened/302987557?i=302987568 - the worse question you can ask me is “what did you just say?” 🤷‍♀️ - H2, fun times no more late nights for me i think we’d get into a lot of trouble :D - at, good luck on your next endeavor <3 what a fun farewell party - fun meeting you new peeps, whos names have drifted away 5/6/2026 thank you for the much needed pep talk: “running away from fear of rejection, and you keep running” “confusion is not love you are being inconsistent on purpose” “to be yourself and not want to be seen” “seeing what most ignore” - the past is just a lesson not a life sentence https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5qA2KUiSws 5/5/2026 impulse vs desire not an easy kind of beauty out of the comfort zone old habits die hard 1st sober cinco de mayo ashtray made smoking too many cigarettes 5/4/2026 art studio 1/2 cleaned canvas ready to prep wheelchair from my knee injury my new meditation/smoking seat zoned out for a few hours listening to the wind trying to see something in the canvas - trying to ween off torture and navigate the idea of sobriety what a combo at least i got a few hours in of feeling like not barfing - T, congrats on your wedding! “may the force be with you” 5/3/2026 how easily destruction appears love lasting even with a shattered heart ventilate tread the long run recovery - tanning in the sun weeded the garden napped 3 times 5/2/2026 distillers fest - H2 <3 thx for sharing going deep into each others histories - getting drunk & stupid - what a show i put on sorry for pushing your buttons thank you for loving me <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/my-own-worst-enemy/258611802?i=258611995 5/1/2026 “absolutely cute” thanks for the compliment and not pinching my cheeks cool grandma at the Tupelo - thx for the jazz sugar <3 - hbd win! running into you & dancing the night away! fun times <3 - to not be touched without permission i think the full moon makes women uninhibited gbot does his best but the onslaught last night i need a dancing bodyguard someone who can keep wandering hands off my ass - https://music.apple.com/us/album/hands-off-my-a%24%24/1895680763?i=6764196853 https://music.apple.com/us/album/hands-off/1720879172?i=1720879173 4/30/2026 the happiest of birthdays to you little bro <3 - constant mirage/barrage of faces sunset so sunny you can’t want more for darkness - lady on the brink of death because of a potato - sorry i couldn’t talk more - crazy the amount of times we run into each other and have no time to talk i promise i will call you back and hopefully not have to get a restraining order - the best i’ve slept in a really long time 4/29/2026 shocking me back to reality each week <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/islands-in-the-stream-with-constantines/1446013344?i=1446013732 - "you make money being a poet?" no i make money being a dj... - it was so nice to meet you i'm looking forward to reading your articles i think we should be friends DM me @antsintheocean:D 4/28/2026 i don’t glow in the dark i’m just adjusted to blending in to the light - the news of my favorite people moving on thank you for wanting to hang out these last days of being in WF i'll miss you forever https://music.apple.com/us/album/my-world-is-empty-without-you/1444015673?i=1444015685 4/27/2026 dressing like georgia o’keeffe & living life like agnus martin before she went insane - too wired to nap i think it was the peanut butter - listening to love songs about me on vinyl <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/where-you-are/1889326364?i=1889326372 4/26/2026 “live authentically in your purpose” -molly - i’m working on this poem, at least it is not totally about death: falling in love and there is nothing nothing at all that can be done about it just wait for the drop of heart to hit rock bottom until then i’ll tread on the lines that are not to be crossed and be as good as i possibly can - it might be a finished micro-poem already thank you for pulling me out of my mood https://music.apple.com/us/album/this-bouquet/1880724248?i=1880724260 4/25/2026 birthday partied out 1 more party to go then sleep, relaxation no more tequila and cake - a, so good to reconnect fully - i didn’t realize how much i missed you actual honest girl talk <3 - i did not come home with a puppy 4/24/2026 met a not so nice cowboy moved here filled with hate dislikes hippy ladies who wear beaded bracelets then he looks at my wrist and says sorry me wearing a cowboy hat doesn’t mean we share the same ideals - tbot in town 14 years since hanging out in person missed you can’t wait to catch up some more - a blur of people gbot’s back went out "too much birthday sex" -ak :D i need sleep 4/23/2026 soft wave torture - met a nice cowboy he was buying a mule was very talkative while i was trying to write a new happy hour friend :) - friends in town from colorado to play a show i’m half dead from my birthday party but a cosmo & cigarette got the gears working steak dinner more drinks running into old friends who i need to reconnect with - packed the band in the jeep snuck off to a dive bar fun catching up <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/night-ride/1737468233?i=1737468241 https://music.apple.com/us/album/cold-shoulder/1737468233?i=1737468234 4/22/2026 my late mid-life crisis i didn’t think i’d even make it this far hopefully i don’t fuck anything up - torture session i was so moody i'm sorry thank you for cheering me up shocking my system to reboot you are the best <3 - i want to release demands that will never be met dreams that will never come true self hatred that seems to grow everyday disappointment in everything i’m disappointed with i want to embrace the love i receive everyday that my heart feels this way and it’s okay - thank you for the birthday wishes i am truly grateful, y’all have filled my heart thinking of me on this day - drink a martini or manhattan or a fucking huge glass of water with me wherever you are - late night long walk home in the rain poured my heart out in slurred sentences - https://music.apple.com/us/album/can-i-call-you-tonight/1482950619?i=1482950632 4/21/2026 confession after 20+ years forgiveness - bliss O my God, I am heartily sorry for having offended Thee, and I detest all my sins because of thy just punishments, but most of all because they offend Thee, my God, who art all good and deserving of all my love. I firmly resolve with the help of Thy grace to sin no more and to avoid the near occasion of sin. Amen. 4/20/2026 nothing is ever in its place no screw driver can be found when needed got my scooter up and running ready to explore & take long rides try to runaway from this self hatred of mine - grandpa bucky hungout with me while i angrily looked for tools what a great forest entity - thank you for making me cry best birthday gift what i wanted - no, what i needed most but was too afraid to ask for to cry and cry some more and cry most of the afternoon until crying was no longer an option <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/blue/1551196981?i=1551196984 4/19/2026 reciprocity there is not enough to give to those who do not care - i am just like you and it scares the fuck out of me - ani, thanks for the reminder “If you’re not getting happier as you get older then you’re fuckin’ up” https://music.apple.com/us/album/if-yr-not/1880717712?i=1880717721 4/18/2026 e, for writing to me & the bday earrings & telling me i am loved <3 - i saw a chipmunk eating a bumble bee 4/17/2026 j, my favorite flowers? a bouquet of chamomile or dying sunflowers what i want for my bday? not to feel this melancholy that washes over me daily or a night of martinis to drown away this feeling or legos or a wagon thanks for asking i love you <3 4/16/2026 it’s been snowing the past 24 hours 7 inches melted off late afternoon but started snowing again all night - took a nap instead of doing my PT - talked to my astrologer “let that shit go” :D - staying home this weekend to prepare... 4/15/2026 dreams deep dreams i was trying to find my way to you took a wrong turn spent the rest of the dream retracing past dream steps i was so dream sad because you were out of office - then i get to see you in person today! thanks for the torturing <3 i hope you get to see bocelli this summer! - f**king taxes 4/14/2026 new hannah (3rd) what a cosmo can’t wait to talk ticks & aliens :) - tim your advice listen to music phish have many drinks love your dogs just love who you love totally and stay alive until you can’t thank you for teaching me how to train a dog to bring beer from a fridge - “you guys look like john & yoko” argue about yoko being the best beatle then its - "hey it’s me glen we’ve known each other for 20+ years i’m djing right now at the palace" i was the crazy one dancing for all the pool playing kids :) what a monday night ;D - hannah (2nd)!!! thanks for the cocktails keeping the creepers away dinner next week <3 4/13/2026 i’m happy you are in love seeing you smile i like how long your hair has grown i need to practice my spanish and visit spain very very soon so sorry i forgot to say “happy belated birthday, i love you!” - fucking iggy pop!!!!! lust for life (as last song) and then exit in a coffin… best set at couchcella!!!!! 4/12/2026 holding a weight of worth beyond myself in value in my small hand i kinda understand what the pursuit of man is all about the power of solid matter - “some people think that they are all, right” -strokes - i was so obsessed with fabrizio gbot took me to barcelona to see them on their world tour 20 some years ago so much fun ! - we are so old music was so raw so real back then smoking cigarettes drinking heinekens talking to people in broken language relating totally - ladies in the bar that tried to take me home i think that is when gbot got paranoid thank you g, for watching over me - “i’m not drowning fast enough” -strokes 4/11/2026 woke for the first time this trip not sure of where i was crazy - back home in my own bed & it felt like a different place owl woot-ing all night alien abduction or death warning (wrote a new poem) woodpecker tapping metal welcoming us back to nature - blondshell nice set! https://music.apple.com/us/album/olympus/1783172294?i=1783172694 https://music.apple.com/us/album/it-wasnt-love/1783189282?i=1783189297 - “ask no questions and i’ll tell you no lies” - jack white - i've got to listen to more sombr https://music.apple.com/us/album/homewrecker/1871595252?i=1871595253 _ “i drink the honey inside your hive your the reason i stay a live” -NIN https://music.apple.com/us/album/closer/1440837096?i=1440837621 4/10/2026 thanks for the drinks !! k&f - slept like babies all night long - coffee girl wanted to know if we had a son because he was so cute & just got coffee an hour earlier :D - streaming couchella worn out after 3 weeks on the road thank you boise! - thank you thank you thank you sara, jeremy, lila - invading your space taking up your time <3 - youna fab set and the outfit- wow! - lykke li what an exit!!!!! https://music.apple.com/us/album/knife-in-the-heart/1857952252?i=1857952500 https://music.apple.com/us/album/sex-money-feelings-die/1372324600?i=1372325244 - xx- nice throw back https://music.apple.com/us/album/say-something-loving/1170763548?i=1170764097 - MOBY https://music.apple.com/us/album/porcelain/281242279?i=281242336 - c, thanks for the talk your advice missed our weekly catch ups - sabrina carpenter is pretty good i think i’m might be a fan? “goodbye means you are losing me for life” 4/9/2026 slept really well on the train sunrise on your home landscape fills the heart hi-jacked the train station luggage cart to the apt afraid it was gonna get stolen on the 3 floor hike before gbot could return it gbot says we need to minimize if we are traveling more laundry, lounging in bed until hotel check in chatting with friends i’ve been ignoring - so sorry hotel nap - until drinks & dinner more catching up - planning my bday g’s record listening party on the same day!? then a long dinner & dj / dancing until u can’t dance anymore? - thank you for the early bday gift - see you in ft collins june <3 4/8/2026 13 coins martini & waffles amtrak back home inspired to write! met daughters of war soundman amour & actually slept on the train 4/7/2026 sitting in bar and your poetry teacher walks in! (said we walked in... but... 1st person) talk about crazy i've got to turn in some writing... chatting about aliens ufos bigfoot serendipity clones over salad, beer, coctails and delicious naan drinks & pinball at olof's girl aske if we were from whitefish mt - her bestie lives there... buddy talked gbot into playing piano during his show what a fab show Buddy! thanks for the books <3 4/6/2026 pizza at la rocca open mic at molly’s g called me an ass for being rude 4/5/2026 i saw the easter bunny right before midnight and a trash panda making its night before trash day run eattle art museum searched for a tarot shop in pikes went in circles g ate a tiny cake pop that cost as much as a regular sized cake 4/4/2026 slow start to a nice day shared a scooter to fremont numa ramen antiquing whiskey bar luke dinner at gainsbourg molly maguires fascinated by the leprechaun painting 4/3/2026 good friday shopping and sushi a night dancing to maita a night of eschewal eating pork and potatoes g drove a tesla & it tried to kill him :| night cap at the tin hat with tedi 4/2/2026 sax shop thai food in redmond bangkok basil apple store to replace my dropped too many times phone happy hour at sea glass cooked mexican didn’t turn out normal not use to cooking in other peoples kitchen 4/1/2026 whiskey wednesday at sea glass dinner at sophon the crack sauce yum! 3/31/2026 watching USA vs POR team started good but fell apart drinking at molly maguires and talking to amazing locals- guy stopped his car and rolled downed his window to say great shoes the couple like my magical as fuck shoes & Jamaica shoes bar owner of the Tottenham bar liked that we watched soccer lady thought I was Asian but then oh, you are Navajo - “I shouldn’t assume”. dinner drinks at sea glass late night walk to talk & beer 3/30/2026 delayed flight margaritas while waiting smoking in the little sun that was left in the smoking area waiting for our ride watching hordes of people picking up people noodles at ginger and scallion 3/29/2026 lobster nachos parkers & manhattans at mode father john misty sam liked my hat & said he liked seeing us have a good time 3/28/2026 walk to record store for st paul and the broken bones snack in bed listening to john craygy happy hour at harlowe st paul on mainstage dinner at red feather the dead and down relax & stretch in bed 3/27/2026 walked to the store to get stuff dinner at hemlock inji charlie’s band magdalena bay michelle nice to meet you thanks for liking my hat and dancing :) 3/26/2026 blondshell the beaches got my album signed by leandra! what a fun show danced & sang my ass off happy hour at hemlock manhattan then the haute girl dinner special martini with 10 olives caesar salad and fries wow!! 3/25/2026 chased down by a lady in a very amazing blouse because she wanted to pet my chicken purse met a native cousin from the Shoshone tribe <3 tobacco jackpot - lance you are the coolest dude thanks for the recommendation of who to see at tree fort northface girl - sorry i forgot your name :( record store shopping dinner with new friends charlie & jennifer <3 ran into lanka on the street “hey i know you guys!” tune-yards! charlie’s band a whole bunch of other bands… more native cousins! cheeto late night snack knee almost wanted to give out :( - https://music.apple.com/us/album/bizness/427937498?i=427937504 3/24/2026 portland airport is a city itself… boise! saw the few people we know just walking down the street guy stopped me to take photos of my shoes his house is his own personal footlocker :D gbot got his lobster & turned pink new bartender friends - hannah #4 & low amazing love vibes 3/23/2026 pre-vacation torture session new dr. - its like speed dating tell me everything about you in 15 minutes hotel living juliette thanks for the drinks ava so good to see you again 3/22/2026 laundry packing taxes :( 3/21/2026 back home watching the chipmonks and pulling weeds had to get away from the party rest up for the next week of parties i am so tired... i ready not to talk for a week and just listen and dance to music - https://music.apple.com/us/album/last-girls-at-the-party/1808081778?i=1808082487 https://music.apple.com/us/album/take-me-home/1773292952?i=1773292954 3/20/2026 spring! indian food bliss pokemon cards found in the wild happy hour lady thanks for the drink it was nice talking to you singing on the corner with my non-busking friend making rounds to see all my friends who are bartenders felt up by a cute girl in a crowded bar - super impressed with your moves ;D make out alley - who knew your basic skills would work so well - thanks for the side splittig laughter g & me are claiming the alley behind the tupe :P no more shots dancing to songs i used to hate conversation corner - where i run into everyone i know... wanted me to test her lip gloss - no thanks, but thank you <3 dancing to band who knows all our ft collins friends! fell fast asleep 3/19/2026 where does time go? super chill and then rush to get out the door taxes and happy hour dancing…? don’t quite remember 3/18/2026 pure torture just what i needed counting down the days to the next time - thanks for listening and the advice “don’t write about sad stuff...” - "why are you so sad?" "why were you at the laundromat?" https://music.apple.com/us/album/torture/1440915419?i=1440915726 3/17/2026 i think i met a serial killer she was nice until she started talking about chopping beautiful women up & sticking them in the freezer - i talk about being ready for death and then someone shows up possibly ready to kill you... 3/16/2026 time to do homework and figure out what it is that i want to do 3/15/2026 packing up after a long weekend a place i now call home to be prepared for strangers 3/14/2026 lady thanks for chasing me down to tell me i’m beautiful <3 martinis and dino nuggets with parker kate always great to see you kitkat wig party :) country dancing with gbot girl at the bar - thanks for asking me out - my ego is restored 3/13/2026 hotel life cheetos for breakfast and root beer little kids crying all night gbot went skiing i slept until 2pm new hat day! 7 hour happy hour… running into everyone even though i rested all day sorry i had to turn in early bryan bryan bryan you crack me up 3/12/2026 gbot got me out of the house, back in the fish my alternative torturer, also really likes to torture me :) the happy hour grind of city life chatting pre-sleep with an old friend miss you so so so much 3/11/2026 just enough energy to organize some pokémon junk do laundry & pack a quick check in with my tarot reader 3/10/2026 got out of bed took a walk couldn’t stop sweating no energy - i'm so sick extremely bummed that i had to cancel my torture session it is the only thing i look forward to glad you were bummed too :) xo - “stop being sad, let that love light shine out of you” thanks for the chat and keeping me company on my death bed <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/bruises/1720050095?i=1720050328 - i'm going out of my mind and 80% ready for death 3/9/2026 going back into hibernation sauna out the sadness be in a comfortable setting while trying to remember to breathe “where nothing really matters to me…” - https://music.apple.com/us/album/regret/1445873566?i=1445873827 - thank you!“everyday counts” i needed to hear this 3/8/2026 todd!!!! your cover of bohemian “sent shivers…” you know how to read the room https://music.apple.com/us/album/bohemian-rhapsody/1440650428?i=1440650711 3/7/2026 actively speeding up my demise - late night fever haircut - mexican coke kills in the best way - i need to update my deathbed wishes - fragile life fragile body fragile soul - a normal day is that the be all end all of it all? - https://music.apple.com/us/album/meet-ze-monsta/1440922042?i=1440922394 3/6/2026 on my death bed - woke at midnight fevering napping all day hydrate cuddle love fest taco fest <3 3/5/2026 happy hour bar hopping seeing everyone caught something somewhere late night smash burger 3/4/2026 def the pheromones after torture and my writing depression 3/3/2026 i'm the saddest i've ever been the fear of death drifting far away i think i could be ready https://music.apple.com/us/album/marianne/1155862196?i=1155862202 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/get-right-with-god/1443776671?i=1443776990 3/2/2026 100 sneezes after my torture session lost count of how many trigger points you dry needled thank you released something huge sorry i was so moody i feel so much better now i am addicted https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-just-cant-get-enough-2024/1755250412?i=1755250423 - excited for upcoming music thank you for fixing me after dancing to https://silversunpickups.com - trying to get me in shape for dancing at https://treefortmusicfest.com - prism bitch!!!!!!!! https://music.apple.com/us/album/you-got-i-want/1316877748?i=1316877757 3/1/2026 see a toucan in the wild something i want to do before i die... https://music.apple.com/us/album/afterlife/1770826874?i=1770827404 2/28/2026 today is my late dogs birthdays years of true love remembered realizing love is only pure when love is true https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-miss-my-dog/1839208932?i=1839208937 - back to my metapod reality festering softness getting ready to harden - thank you for reconnecting me to reality for actively trying to healing me - i need my torture session it is the only thing i look forward to https://music.apple.com/us/album/beautiful-feeling/1440922247?i=1440922598 2/27/2026 filled to the brim your love hard body soft kisses total gentleness laying on top of me making my heart calm each and every time - sorry i poked your eye - https://music.apple.com/us/album/closer/577318371?i=577318374 2/26/2026 i did laugh at the stupid thing you said but you were talking louder than everyone you were on a date with a lady of the night - i smile walk out talk to a friend poke the bonfire smoke a cigarette take a bath a cold shower exfoliate hydrate fall asleep <3 2/25/2026 home, MT - slept fully, still sad, this trip was to cheer me up - had the total opposite outcome - my eyes stopped itching and my body feels better, definitely the cats, but everyone on the plane was sick... - so sad i had to cancel a torture session, hope i feel better by monday - crazy i didn’t do any writing or reading didn’t have time or energy - the time it takes to waste time where the days are slow and time is measured by television or doctors appointments and the speed limit is so slow and no one ever leaves or really wants to suggestions are listened to but dismissed because effort is even too much to think about it felt like “stay here with us, be like us, you are one of us” - https://music.apple.com/us/album/hold-on-let-go-feat-wayne-snow-3ddy/1831622154?i=1831622156 2/24/2026 fell asleep in the hotel lobby this last week felt like 3 decades ate an amazing green chile cheese burger drank my vitamin margaritas at the airport finally got 100% hydrated just as leaving NM - https://music.apple.com/us/album/feels-so-good/1790432405?i=1790432406 2/23/2026 deadly tired & sad, super home sick for montana silversun pickups, standing inline felt like sitting ducks for all the slow passing deep tinted windowed cars, so many doubles i’m not sure how much i drank - i was even able to dance a little before i felt my knee start to hurt - https://music.apple.com/us/album/au-revoir-reservoir/1847573918?i=1847573922 https://music.apple.com/us/album/panic-switch/1862927157?i=1862927168 2/22/2026 mom, brothers, b-ball and dr p sad & depressed called off of visiting anyone else constant nose drip turning into a cold? - https://music.apple.com/us/album/tv-party/117018235?i=117017644 2/21/2026 antiquing - found a sterling silver martini shaker and cups for $80 ($5k value!) exposed to the haunta virus!?! 2/20/2026 santa fe, the shed - best food ever gallery shopping bought a beautiful bracelet from a vendor in the square 2/19/2026 NM - so tired cat allergies wind advisory rv camping land sea sick 2/18/2026 finished artwork with one hour to spare lunch martini hour torture session got test prints listening to test prints stayed up all night to catch flight followed by police to airport 2/17/2026 working on artwork deadline laundry packing stressed 2/16/2026 woke up knowing better don’t do the tequila shots - fuk, i hope you heal quickly sucks that you still have to work psa: check the durability of your bindings - running into everyone on a sunday night everyone ready to fuck or fight https://music.apple.com/us/album/hearts-on-fire/1444329195?i=1444329196 - thanks for the “hair of the dog” cocktails hannah luv u! - https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-go-hard-i-go-home/1393919277?i=1393919429 - my spiritual healer is working overtime tabacco, sage, water baths to cleanse aura i do feel energetically lighter 2/15/2026 one of the best manhattans i’ve ever had, thanks griffen! - dinner and drinks with friends staff thought j was our son amazed that a seven year old ate all the clams sorry your alone time was cut short - drinks & more drinks with friends - arguing over reality i hope you do go to law school :) and how we just want to drink tea & start a softball team "swing and a miss" smoked way too many cigarettes - hannah, you need a better pickup line one without the word mayo ;D - b, thanks for wishing me well on my torture sessions <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/just-be-friends-soccer-mommy-version/1841830786?i=1841830787 2/14/2026 chased by a rhino sneeze attack shocked awake - thanks for galentines day <3 - tanya, i love the earrings they are fab! - gregory sorry i made us cry but what a way to deepen this connection i love you 2/13/2026 focus i’m out of time but i still waste it like it doesn’t matter - thank you for your advice : “if you don’t know where you are going any road will get you there” “it is never too late” “it's a time to live like you are lightning” - ur book rec a subject most don’t read about can’t wait to talk to you about it i’ve already found a most favorite quote <3 “have you ever had a memory sneak out of your eye and roll down your cheek?” 2/12/2026 life coach week 3 advised to not share so much on this page save it for my poetry writing but who really reads this? https://music.apple.com/us/album/what-else-is-there-trentemoller-remix/726142381?i=726142396 - asked what i desire most? 100% equal give and take interpretation: this creates my constant dissatisfaction the idea of all or nothing i def agree 100% interp = want me like i want you https://music.apple.com/us/album/afraid-of-nothing/820969262?i=820969345 - i can’t look at my calendar it makes me sad that i have to leave my blissful bubble - https://music.apple.com/us/album/out-of-time-feat-poli%C3%A7a/1224090937?i=1224091349 2/11/2026 https://music.apple.com/us/album/little-bit/283495490?i=283495498 instinct vs desire and what exactly is desire https://music.apple.com/us/album/is-this-desire/1440912742?i=1440912981 - what a crazy journey my heart has traveled this week my biography claiming me to be a time traveler and then traveling back in time & my heart once again kicked back to reality https://music.apple.com/us/album/show-me-love/301002604?i=301002607 - wow! i thought i was at the precipise of torture but i was only at base camp . . . a needle to the calf even if my need for torture ever ends we will be life long friends its not just the endorphins talking :) - waiting until the end of the deadline forcing creativity thanks for rooting me on <3 - “untether your soul release the 8 of cups you are happy & don’t need to chase anything transform it is finally time to walk away” https://music.apple.com/us/album/pick-up/1784316789?i=1784317470 2/10/2026 i let gbot use my computer and half my playlists go missing not too sure what happened but it is getting back on track - dream: talking to cab driver about the secrets of reality - “what matters is your opinion about yourself” https://music.apple.com/us/album/whats-love-got-to-do-with-it/804178529?i=804178540 - chatting with my favorite doctor about chickens, vacation, torture and my funny supplement husband :) thx for taking care of my body & health <3 *up the b vitamins,dmso soft skin, saffron https://music.apple.com/us/album/not-the-doctor/1715762264?i=1715762833 https://music.apple.com/us/album/call-the-doctor/906073870?i=906073880 https://music.apple.com/us/album/doctor/1844704621?i=1844704759 2/9/2026 still sad about so many things, and everything https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-will-survive/1632540361?i=1632540601 - sleeping late zoom call at noon wake up at 11:32 ani, thanks for the suggestion to hug a tree <3 great discussion esotertic NDE themes coming to the forefront is my jam 3 martini lunch sounds fun - "be authentic its okay to be afraid of being afraid let the tension go don’t spiral" https://music.apple.com/us/album/so-what/1208772734?i=1208774174 2/8/2026 time invested slow return ready for retrograde - so sad about her dying https://music.apple.com/us/album/ill-fly-away/1469581485?i=1469582469 - eldri your radio show filled my heart <3 - super bowl, unimpressed - from the other side of the sidewalk eyes meet after so many years parade blocking the path smile nod remember everything deep breath keep on moving two million pound clouds floating in the sky https://music.apple.com/us/album/your-ex-lover-is-dead/1442859173?i=1442859183 https://music.apple.com/us/album/somebody-that-i-used-to-know-feat-kimbra/1440754000?i=1440754487 https://music.apple.com/us/album/cheers-darlin/2249511?i=2249503 2/7/2026 at least we know the smoke alarms don’t work - list of ladies ready to make jewelry 1/2 rent for a retail space $2,400 a month plus ulities and insurance = no thank you - afternoon drinking doom scrolling buddy - cheers - my life coach says "i need to focus" - too tired to party, but the party never ends - something i never thought i’d hear all the time “can i pet your chicken?” - winter carnival - joelle, sorry for accidently punching you - b, always late & buzzing "come out for a drink at midnight?" i’m already in bed luv u :D - 120 flights of stairs is getting my knee back on track - drifting dangerously https://music.apple.com/us/album/biggy/725462668?i=725462673 https://music.apple.com/us/album/tripped-and-fell-in-love/1634670671?i=1634670951 2/6/2026 shadow aura of a forearm television light baking brain hum of hotel holding sleep hostage - fell asleep on the chiropractor table - i’m not too sure why i’m so sad - i’m looking forward to more afternoon naps drinking bedtime tea reading books in bed tangled in the softness of whatever room we are in i don’t need anything more - https://music.apple.com/us/album/seventeen/1436857685?i=1436857873 https://music.apple.com/us/album/civilian/1839149510?i=1839149520 2/5/2026 CR7 hbd! - keeping me grounded i don’t know how you keep doing it i love you so much i don’t know what i’m doing - choking on ugli fruit juice - i need to minimize everything i pack it is way too much staying home, i would not have to pack anything! its just a weekend trip... - talking about fish falling from the sky and what reality is good topics during torture - https://music.apple.com/us/album/take-me-there-mixed/1839605496?i=1839605503 2/4/2026 happy to birthday to my besties kbot & bee <3 - torture session bliss my right leg no longer belongs to me looking forward to just hanging out :D https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-think-i-like-it/1440455310?i=1440455312 - didn’t go visit bruce "abruzzo" - too much travel and no time :( he has a whole part of my heart - i was in puppy <3 one day. . . training a puppy in a 3 story walkup - i can’t https://music.apple.com/us/album/puppy-love/1554157538?i=1554157768 - “look at the bigger picture” "break through the wood ceiling" i can’t believe you called me an “asshat” <3 for always always being there for me 2/3/2026 a squeaky door in my dreams that i need to fix - gbot making 9am appointments - not a fan - becoming friends with your LV advisor :D - adopt ‘bruce’ ‘abruzzo’ ‘abra’ the puppy or go to abra in ibiza? https://pacha.com/event/blondish--abracadabra--season-ii---opening-party-13-05-2026 - BLOND:ish says to do both :D she has a dogsitter for us <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/never-walk-alone/1755071025?i=1755071026 - your smile brighter than the sun made waking up early & the day okay https://music.apple.com/us/album/blister-in-the-sun/1567635436?i=1567635512 2/2/2026 groundhog day! a holiday in our house https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-got-you-babe/40288222?i=40288233 - riding my stationary bike to nowhere - internet gaming friends worried they hadn’t heard from me <3 - oblivious sanctuary time exists only if you believe in it - “the universe is listening” thanks for reminding me looking forward so much to seeing you in person soon t-minus 18 days “clean get away” i totally forgot about this song - https://music.apple.com/us/album/clean-getaway/1455128880?i=1455128884 2/1/2026 4 hours at home after vacation and finally feel relaxed & on vacation ;D i missed having time to read the most - c, the power - you see it all ! 100% chasm and the toe injury wow!! 10 days since you last made me cry emotional release thank you for the advice & direction <3 at least i didn’t make you cry - a, 1/1 good catching up i felt like i was on the moon <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/moon/714520927?i=714521541 1/31/2026 s, thanks for not being bored of us convo, silence, laughter, eating & airport hellos & goodbyes you are the best friend ever, i love you so very much <3 <3 <3 looking for parking was my fav https://music.apple.com/us/album/best-friend-dvs1-dub-test-feat-naughty-wood/1678675707?i=1678675717 - so good to be under gray skies and brisk air of montana where most everyone knows your name and drink order and asks "where have you been" - my astrologer says i need a nap https://music.apple.com/us/album/sleepyhead/300087641?i=300087652 - the chicken purse is a hit in MT - weird to be sleeping in pajamas again - so good to be home actual home with you https://music.apple.com/us/album/home/716436562?i=716436758 1/30/2026 last day in hawaii high fashion browsing at LV gucci was too far for me to walk i liked fitting in physically the most the humidity and constant sunshine really wasn’t for me - identified by a cousin as being diné - back to the mainland seattle, futuristic hotel fell fast asleep dehydrated - https://music.apple.com/us/album/din%C3%A9/1765431364?i=1765431365 1/29/2026 jewelry making workshop 2 rings made - gave my teacher my “drinking money frog” wallet it was the same one that she lost it was a very special gift from her grandma ❤️ - everyone thinks we are on our honeymoon 😅 best oceanfront table at dinner fun music & then a free honeymoon gift bag champagne & a pair of sea turtles plushies - ricky lee jones at the blue note - https://music.apple.com/us/album/chuck-e-s-in-love/1421846869?i=1421846880 1/28/2026 “linda, another martini?” ~kaeola another bartender bestie 😅 - i met a gengar! https://music.apple.com/us/album/pokemon/1802918329?i=1802918496 - roy yamaguchi manhattan the best manhattan i’ve had! - ani, you are rad! thank you for looking for that missoula live recording- at least “fuel” survived on ❤️ - https://youtu.be/ak1gZDYKkiY?si=1UwA7gCoMFXOThZn 1/27/2026 72 hours of being a sideline ‘parent’ of a 7 year old i don’t know how y’all do it - attachment purpose release - k, anywhere & everywhere 100% on point, much needed & appreciated 💕 - “what would it take to make this the best year of your life?” - BHN BHN BHN https://music.apple.com/us/album/heal-our-inner-child-and-chill/1824484769?i=1824484771 - free drinks with new bartender bestie! :D most delicious pina colada mojito - https://music.apple.com/us/album/is-this-love/1440818212?i=1440818226 1/26/2026 in love with a surfer - waves crashing against a weak knee - girls night out sorry you woke with a mai tai headache 🫠 - plumbing disaster - cats hunting chickens - https://music.apple.com/us/album/surfin-safari/1442871699?i=1442871771 1/25/2026 breaching whales falling into the sky? - kinesiology tape suntan lines - sun sinking blood red into sea at sunset cloud blood sky - skyline of spiderwebs - everyone needs a nap - https://music.apple.com/us/album/cloud-blood/1208776378?i=1208776798 1/24/2026 A hard rain stops the morning cock-a-doodle of wild roosters - traveling thousands of miles to sugar up friends kid with lava cake 😎 https://music.apple.com/us/album/islands/1850810462?i=1850810466 - the smell of molten lava (cake) - pineapple allergy itchiness - pet geckos - wild chickens everywhere - did i cross the black cats path or did it cross mine? https://music.apple.com/us/album/black-cat/411550837?i=411551200 1/23/2026 slow morning - waking hot - “the worst thing about becoming a zombie is all the walking” - $$$ https://music.apple.com/us/album/money/1440897088?i=1440897093 - being ask to take a photo with tourists 😅 i think they thought i was a vampire hunter with all my crosses https://music.apple.com/us/album/vampire-hunter/1477132406?i=1477132429 1/22/2026 it is nice to be somewhere where you are nothing special just another rando - seeing art shawdows & being a shadow - its all about organized collections misery is a butterfly - s, thank you for a really colorful afternoon <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/misery-is-a-butterfly/1027461699?i=1027462498 https://music.apple.com/us/album/shadows/392612860?i=392613078 1/21/2026 thank you for still kicking my ass into gear every week and telling me how much i’m loved knowing when i need encouragement i love you so much you are the best i'll see you in february <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/kind-and-generous/182259270?i=182259379 - martini lunch before torture “100% ocean or 100% desert” you crack me up ;) - https://music.apple.com/us/album/ambient-heat/1826642735?i=1826642739 https://music.apple.com/us/album/tear-you-apart/1444219951?i=1444220325 - saying things that only should be handwritten in love letters - https://music.apple.com/us/album/the-first-taste/309677190?i=309677259 - my "do what you think is best" attitude has taken me to another world thank you again for fixing my body i'll be the new "cane guy" forever :D - https://music.apple.com/us/album/running-with-scissors/1821630342?i=1821630343 - when art destroys your soul in a really good way thank you M <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/wondering/1651298873?i=1651298880 1/20/2026 moving at the speed of blue cheese fermenting moldy tangy just rotten enough to be enjoyable without barfing your guts out leaves a craving for a flavor that will never be satisfied ever - thinking of adding a ‘really bad poem’ / ‘daily drafts’ subsection to the website it would be filled in no time - wake with fear of death sitting on chest air feeling empty and heavy remembering how to breathe darkness keeping me contained emotion ceiling surpassed what comes next - the new moon finally caught up to me... sorry for bumming out the playlist _ https://music.apple.com/us/album/tears-stupid-tears/284700782?i=284700902 https://music.apple.com/us/album/cbm/1499159930?i=1499159933 https://music.apple.com/us/album/both-sides-now/541488092?i=541488105 1/19/2026 a bowling date if i bring my fancy haired husband :D you are the coolest kid alan i hope you win the tournament - another most productive day scrubing the tub, drinking a beer and listening to this ani interview i should be writing https://youtu.be/sU6SBr0yess?si=oIfCeZzAsIMoLJyA - & then cutting my hair, new moon craziness i miss my hair stylist now that she has retired and my new stylist lives 1000 miles away :( - “adapt reinvent there are no problems only solutions” - happy 80th dolly! https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-will-always-love-you/1062400323?i=1062400635 https://music.apple.com/us/album/do-i-ever-cross-your-mind/667907890?i=667907923 https://music.apple.com/us/album/jolene-single-version/282883573?i=282883578 1/18/2026 fire smoke purification best friends old stories new friends new twists sharing all the best - cults craziness confessions “have you even lived if you haven’t been in a cult” -M “i’d travel back in time to prove my mother wrong” -S “your torture sessions sound way more enjoyable than mine” -C “where do i go to get this done to me” -A - “what happened to all the crazy?” i’ve been knighted to take the role of being 'the over the top eccentric' in our group “i can’t see you with my fake glasses on” :D - https://music.apple.com/us/album/digital-witness/1440942954?i=1440943307 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/dont-f-g-tell-me-what-to-do/1442949015?i=1442949224 1/17/2026 sandwich dream hunger satisfied pastrami muenster mustard - word for word verbatim was just a little too much 100% taking a 48 hr offline 'swan dive' security break - the theme of my next poem 'what good is time if you waste it on being...' - listening to this album for 30 years! i'm getting so old https://music.apple.com/us/album/boys-for-pele-deluxe/1155862196 - "prepare but protect" - M, total understanding... <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-want-your-soul/714918721?i=714918921 1/16/2026 crazy - my poem y'all liked most in 2025 was no longer listen - blocking stalkers - soft caring face hides a lot of stuff - good thing that you didn’t have far to fall off the bed :D - i’m switching to military time y’all will have to figure it out what time we meet up - thanks for the cache control tip - u rok! - https://music.apple.com/us/album/right-behind-you-feat-lula/1272200515?i=1272200518 1/15/2026 our small dinner party this weekend has turned into a free for all bonfire bring water, a flash light, chair, appetizer and something to drink - “don’t let ego drive the boat” thank y’all for dealing with my ego on tuesday - it was outlandish! xoxo - “i don’t have friends, i have associates” :D this cheered me up thx <3 - “elevate your beliefs, ignore all the rest” - CR - i need a referee to follow me around offsides, double yellow, seeing red off to the shower - authentic sharing & advice outcomes direct honesty is something else thank you Maria i’m hooked - free mind jigsaw and conversing a nice way to spend an afternoon - it must be pretty bad, when you make your tarot reader cry 'slow down, hydrate, breathe, and then breathe deeper let it all go' - https://music.apple.com/us/album/vampire-empire/1693813366?i=1693813373 1/14/2026 don’t fall head first into the honey pot feet first so the demise takes longer - don’t worry about the little failures doubts can be used as fuel bigger picture karma choose the right path - mission improbable - iliacus muscle released my soul is walking without pain! - moon in scorpio chiron kicking my ass - https://music.apple.com/us/album/pedestrian-at-best/1719870103?i=1719870105 1/13/2026 talking about art: “why aren’t you doing more? you have the means- all you have to do is make art” - ‘yes, it sounds very easy, but fuck it is not easy - maybe i’m not an artist’ - my new obsession of trying to prove my worth and then sinking into sadness think i’m going to ignore everyone for a few weeks - and then i listen to you sing and remember myself on my high horse telling you not to worry about what others think- i kinda of understand now - https://music.apple.com/us/album/tired-and-sick/1678182844?i=1678182846 - these weekly martini lunches have been so good for my soul delayed pain, honesty & reminder to relax fully - the hard line of a landscape thx for listening to me nerd out on what i've been reading <3 - wow...! my endorphins are running wild i don't think anyone has taken my femoral pulse before thank you for releasing me i’ve never felt like this - excited to see if i'll have inspiration to write tonight and if so, the exploration of triggering meridians for creativity - https://music.apple.com/us/album/ooh-la-la/1444740051?i=1444740052 1/12/2026 running out of vermouth - i never thought it would happen to me - thank you for the deep leg massage - i'm serious if you want a full time job <3 - "slow down, take 5" thanks for the advice always xoxo - listening to love songs written for you by your lover 'the final, mix & master' before going to print - i could not ask for any better gift thank you gregory for loving me so much your album is gonna be fab! sorry for driving you so crazy every new moon and every day in-between <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/true-love/1121037418?i=1121037427 1/11/2026 too much toast not enough lemons - fun watching y’all dance the time warp, again last night :D - el classico day!!! 2nd half i did my cycling physical therapy send best wishes to my knee - feels worse this week :| - got high and did a 5 minute diy haircut - turned out pretty good - lost 2 rings this weekend - i blame the gloves :( - my dining room has turned in my portrait studio - strobe umbrellas and backdrops with no room to live life time to organize the actual studio and use it - hot sauna & sage smudging bath - when it takes 3 weeks for me to finish watching a movie - https://music.apple.com/us/album/hyper-ballad-family-tree-version/300205609?i=300205691 1/10/2026 approached at dinner and asked if famous gbot “no” 😅 i’ve never felt so betrayed - over heard today ‘fuck you and your dog’ i wonder what the dog did... - hotel living, wake up “where the fuk am i?” skittles and 7up for breakfast deep talks with people you’ll never see again - https://music.apple.com/us/album/fame/513473335?i=513473339 1/9/2026 "this and that are true" - i think i’ve talked chef earl to make t-rex nuggets! :D - all day ridiculousness marathon in bed - thank you k for the tarot reading <3 sorry for the frustrating energy that crazy throat chakra blockage amazing insights - "time and space boundaries" - https://music.apple.com/us/album/dark-star/1720491442?i=1720491455 1/8/2026 write. get depressed. don’t write. be okay with being depressed. - took a nap, before going to bed :D slept 16 hours - s, re: chat about getting out of a rut - the book i’m reading most drink or drug their way out, take on lots of lovers or just give up - “everyone hasn’t a chance now “ - https://youtu.be/DyJEh8qTvD8?si=kgnogHyuka0KMBgD&t=240 1/7/2026 how do starfish swim through the sea? i imagine them techno dancing until they wake up naked on a beach - i’m worried to travel friends seeing earthquakes, tsunamis & volcanos erupting - skittles for breakfast - send help - think i'll call up some of these ramdom phone numbers i have just to find out who it is - anything to keep from writing... - venus conjucts mars - 2+2=22 - thanks blond:ish <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/blond-ish-at-kappa-futurfestival-2024-dj-mix/1774532000 1/6/2026 bribed to sleep in until 10am with the promise of waffles slept until noon but woke up extremely grumpy - honey bear needs a bath - breaking the hard rules told not to break - 2 martini quick lunch and then a dry needle torture session which i'm starting to enjoy?! back to walking with a cane - anna, miss you & will visit soonish <3 - when close friends start to theme their day on a pokemon "jigglypuff" - it was what i was feeling too <3 - the entire album is top 10 - but listening to this song for 34 years! crazy... “haze all clouded up my mind In a daze of why it could’ve never been” https://music.apple.com/us/album/tear-in-your-hand-2015-remastered-version/981370459?i=981370471 1/5/2026 even in my dream life everyone is sick & coughing - escape room of love sabotaged perspective engagement of dilution distance within fearful surrender tower on fire - your advice is a poem <3 - “it feeds my heart that you came looking for me...” https://music.apple.com/us/album/rain-check/1208721386?i=1208723743 1/4/2026 too many cookies - cache of sleep refilled - my days are not the same when i don’t get a morning motivation text from you - https://music.apple.com/us/album/lonely-lonely/1440737213?i=1440737227 - thx 4 the glute massage. wow! <3 - added micropoetry subsection other suggestions in progress ur the best mento xo - https://youtu.be/bvSS8_ijdAQ?si=ZlXUm_GvJhgEjEoL&t=52 1/3/2026 raise the high jump bar commit to higher standards - my astrocartography reccommends me living in the middle of the ocean or in ft. collins :D researching sailboats & skimming zillow - remember hours talking in the shower- what a waste of water recirculating showers should be standard or maybe just take a bath - https://music.apple.com/us/album/sunshowers/1450124269?i=1450124371 1/2/2026 12.5 hours of sleep! - need a programmer for my “_______ of the day” app - slotted soup spoon - https://music.apple.com/us/album/soup/1736025456?i=1736025953 1/1/2026 no pants day - sauna out the toxins of 2025 - i accept your challenge cousin <3 - "do avocados have flavor if not mistreated?" - thank you for helping me fail at my resolutions already :D - https://music.apple.com/us/album/keep-on-livin/1611953263?i=1611953279 12/31/2025 c, a needed cry fest before the new year! <3 - to my advisors, thank you for all the direction & getting me through 2025. - 2026 resolutions sleep better try not to eat any of the foods on my allergy chart minimize stuff write better make more art travel the other side of the equator j, what a great idea - yes lets go to the maldives! i'm free anytime!!! - “Freedom from desire feels the same as fulfillment” - Naval Ravikant - only two martini glasses broke in 2025!!! - siri, a hug was just what i needed <3 - chef, lets eat artichokes :) - sara, <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-want-to-sleep/309711827?i=309711880 12/30/2025 poets arguing over saltines and sand when it should of been anchovies instead of sardines your insights are why i want to know you for eternity after eternity until eterity no longer exists - i need a personal assistant - no i need a chauffeur - https://music.apple.com/us/album/something-about-you/1720489883?i=1720489886 12/29/2025 thx for the tips on handling my self-indulgence phase of life even though my skull is thick - one day... coach, i’ll do as told :) - my convo notes: gyhooya. surrender. just be. enjoy the gifts. this is it. you’ll be ok. - when japanese skittles break a tooth :( - why are teeth the shape of teeth? - wow - the day sure goes fast if you sleep until noon - https://music.apple.com/us/album/what-the-hec/1711071779?i=1711071794 12/28/2025 can you believe it has been 3 months since i was in a hardware store?! went today & didn't even buy anything! - i need a spa day - my mantra of 'don't think, sleep' seems to be working quite well - hot sauce on a banana - what a craving - i hope the playlist i made you was good company for your drive back <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/be-who-you-want-to-be/1532925823?i=1532925824 12/27/2025 time to complete things that have been left hanging - 28 hours to fly to easter island... fuk :0 - matching tattoos? 'Ditto' from pokémon is the only thing i'd get :D but i'm not looking for that kind of commitment <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/ditto/1586627952?i=1586627968 - listening to every version of 'suspicious minds' over breakfast for the mashup gregory wants me to make with sharon van ettens 'afterlife' - https://youtu.be/zc-R0bSt5FA?si=-wP-84zGNBO5ORnH - this song sticks in my mind for weeks everytime i hear it 12/26/2025 thank you for the photography pep talk - time to hibernate, rest for the journey - pomegranate everywhere - https://music.apple.com/us/album/could-i-be/1564492421?i=1564492425 12/25/2025 Merry Christmas! Peace on Earth! - Thank you for letting us join your family last night <3 - Kate, thank you for the amazing cake it was the perfect Christmas breakfast xo - 3 Lindas at a party- I love you other Lindas - I’m in a ukulele band now & maybe have publisher!!? - Parker, finish your screenplay & let’s make my spaghetti western - “**** magnet” it’s gonna be a good poem title, but I refuse it to be my new nickname - https://music.apple.com/us/album/silent-night/1537011606?i=1537011608 12/24/2025 merry merry! happy holidaze! a most safe journey on your way to the manger. - holy holy holy i’m completely a new human pain elation peace thank you ! ! ! - we have way too much in common <3 another who only watches Ridiculousness - friends forever!! except the 5am wake up time - these are the soft shoes i was talking about https://www.nike.com/t/calm-se-womens-mules-Q7wM1b/FZ3119-001 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/the-cure-feat-chloe-paige/1784008771?i=1784008772 12/23/2025 distracted, lazy or indifference will the xmas tree get decorated before the new year? we won't even be home during peak hours. - xmas minimalism dead tree pretty lights fake star shiny balls sparkly memories how about we just go to argentina now? - https://music.apple.com/us/album/o-tannenbaum/1440948781?i=1440948787 12/22/2025 sorry i got you addicted to pokémon fun times ahead :D you better start working overtime $$$ - that new moon kicked my butt thank you for checking my ego - https://music.apple.com/us/album/voodoo-in-my-blood/1077820947?i=1077821386 12/21/2025 mike, nikki legs legs legs legs compress those legs ivy is the softest sweetest dog <3 - time to throw in the towel i need to learn to lose gotta let things go can't win every board game 'violent cribbage' - do wolves howl at the new moon? - https://music.apple.com/us/album/wolf-like-me/1437098983?i=1437098988 12/20/2025 sam, kate, hannah all i want in life is honesty & y’all deliver sophisticated lovely humans - the softest fake fur jacket i've ever felt - soft pearls & vodka - you looked so pretty in my deep wine lip gloss - poland! - https://music.apple.com/us/album/who-the-f-k/1443923200?i=1443923402 12/19/2025 authentic sexy slovakian accent thank you woman on the street for the compliments <3 free cheese cake! spilled guts exorcism of emotion dilly bar divergent tangible chakra - https://music.apple.com/us/album/ghosts/368102128?i=368102157 12/18/2025 i had to have peas with dinner, and then craved pancakes, pickles & orange juice all night long my food cravings are pointing to pregnancy- but highly unlikely (despite what my spiritual advisors say) - i’m totally bumming myself out, i think i need to stop writing - https://music.apple.com/us/album/house-jam/820802022?i=820802124 - p.s. who has my jacket and sunglasses?? 12/17/2025 peas in soup, why? they get so mushy. "unless it is pea soup" thanks j for texting me this - the avant garde sound of men working in your attic is still making me laugh this morning :D - https://music.apple.com/us/album/crimewave/1132754123?i=1132754189 12/16/2025 a lunch martini before the most painful “enjoyable” dry needling session & then the best glute & thigh massage and tickle fest thank you for fixing my body <3 i def needed a cigarette after... - https://music.apple.com/us/album/feel-good-feat-khruangbin/1385072561?i=1385072877 12/15/2025 “a voice like Macy Gray” thank you Buddy - the best compliment ever <3 - you made me so nervous when you stopped my reading to tell me this :D i promise we never have to talk about 'ambergris' again - https://www.buddywakefield.com 12/14/2025 i'm surrounded by a veil of seduction or lust if i can turn on my totally gay poetry teacher it has to be something other than me just being me... - i’m gonna get a complex, but maybe i should just fully embrace this 'super-power'? - https://music.apple.com/us/album/sexual-revolution/190625753?i=190626625 12/13/2025 20g fun time funking out! - to the girl with guitar pick earrings and the boy who ate the chicken thank you for the honest nice company i hope you danced the night away and fell madly in love - bry, i like your “linda do you remember...” stories i must of been really tripping on shrooms because i do not remember :D - lady i forgot your name, thank you for your life story. i liked that you lost your accent the deeper the story went but next time we talk - my thigh is off limits - when a stanger asks you to marry... i think i need to stay home more. - https://music.apple.com/us/album/taking-me-home/906073870?i=906076946 12/12/2025 sugartooth fun hanging out <3 "don't let them change your voice" thanks for the advice excited to read your book one day - https://music.apple.com/us/album/paperback-writer/1441132965?i=1441134120 12/11/2025 ani, sending health vibes & quick recovery energy to you and to your trees, sorry the pecan tree lost its lover <3 - i need a 2nd and 3rd life bag, i'm tired of packing & unpacking - starting the weekend early i need a writing break, emotionally drained after yesterday - https://music.apple.com/us/album/pecan-trees/1279121992?i=1279121996 12/10/2025 rgp, thank you for arguing with me about tacos and getting me out of my depressed writing mood. get on board - soft tacos for life!! - https://music.apple.com/us/album/taco/1527587618?i=1527587620 12/9/2025 Thank you for sending me more words. 'construe' is one of my all time favorite words! I used the last word you sent in my last poem it was just the word I needed. xoxo - random note: this song title should of been 'construe' instead of 'define' https://music.apple.com/us/album/define/1017580419?i=1017580443 12/8/2025 quiet forest 13 hour sleep brain mushy from creating new words - dream reality is on point traveling the same path notes matching up tiny van tiny boat box of cookies man with beard in mexico - https://music.apple.com/us/album/dreaming/1444083914?i=1444083925 12/7/2025 Gentlemen thank you for a nice evening of drinks full of laughter and protection and for dancing the mashpotato & trying to figure out the watusi on the icy streets - J, thank you for the delicious huckleberry apple pie :) - S.M. I love you and love talking to you <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/we-are-your-friends-justice-vs-simian/1663629922?i=1663629931 12/6/2025 Thank you friends for resurring me with kind words of friendship. _ It was nice to hangout with the OG's last night. Only got approached once I think the protection aura is working. Everything tasted like fireball all day. - https://music.apple.com/us/album/faith-in-our-friends/338343791?i=338343950 12/5/2025 I knew better than to do that shot of fireball... I feel like a piece of meat lately- I need to put on an protection enery aura when going out. You ladies are on the prowl, I don't want to make out or go home with you. - https://music.apple.com/us/album/raspberry-swirl/301010550?i=301010555 12/4/2025 Nicolette, totally crushing after reading your poems. Thank you for your insights, tips & for the suggested edits 'verb tense/form/pov' "What else is down there in the depths?” <3 - laundry and packing WF friends, gonna be at the opening day after party tonight - come out for drinks :) - https://music.apple.com/us/album/plastic-dreams/1347951159?i=1347951282 12/3/2025 I got an email from a friend that is no longer here in this reality. "Just checking in and if I was okay & needed anything...!!!!" How can you send email from the after life? Not joking let me know, or is it just AI fucking around. Got me listening to your favorite band today. - https://music.apple.com/us/album/when-i-come-around/1702070738?i=1702071025 12/2/2025 'Modality' thank you for this word I think the world of you for taking care of my health. xo - https://music.apple.com/us/album/modality-posthuman-remix/1736936634?i=1736936645 12/1/2025 Amie, thank you for reading my poetry and for the notes on my latest rough draft true- it is very raw & real and that it still needs an extra deep dive on that 'everyone feels it' part I'll keep writing until i get it there <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/your-love-is-killing-me/820969262?i=820969348 11/30/2025 thanks for the therapy & advice "get over it, relax & let it go stop being an a55hole" i'll try my best ;D - 5 week poetry workshop over doing 2 more weeks & then private sessions! - https://youtu.be/5n6413nx6b0?si=xZ4gJlqVxV731AXK 11/29/2025 I am sorry I hurt your feelings thank you for still making me the perfect cup of tea this morning & kissing my neck & back <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/friday-im-in-love/301011929?i=301011936 11/28/2025 me navigating the icy sidewalks on crutches has my husband on edge. thanks for hanging out with us and for the drinks so nice to have a prue honest converstaion talking about stalkers, evil engergy blocking & the talk of eliminating your archon :) - ramdom dude who showed me your dance moves that your new knee can do <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/friends/1718759120?i=1718759127 11/27/2025 a quiet evening in our little universe- every year we get closer to symbiosis. crazy that this is the first thanksgiving we didn’t eat turkey ever!! alone or together... another first. I am the most thankful for you. - I liked how it felt we were the only lovers left alive tonight - https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-will-follow-you-into-the-dark/966377290?i=966377517 11/26/2025 got the lindavigil.com 2026 calendar finished today - had the best thigh & hamstring massage today. she called my thigh muscle a stegosaurus ;D and concurs with my chiro that "i'm a mess" - https://music.apple.com/us/album/messy-love/1440889830?i=1440889982 11/25/20205 mondays are bad luck for my knee- out again. i'm over it. - my wish is to get as high as sugar filled kids without the terrible crash - it has been so fun hanging out with your amazing kids & i haven't gotten sick once- amazing! - https://music.apple.com/us/album/kids/264720008?i=264720124 11/24/2025 counting years in days - the fequency is tight 11 hours of sleep! laundry & packing... it is finally snowing :) - https://music.apple.com/us/album/land-of-snow-feat-miho-hatori-glenn-patscha-oren-bloedow/1464036729?i=1464036735 11/23/2025 s,e,a,p it was a fun dinner catch up last night great to get back with my mind expanding alt reality buddies <3 - week 4 another 5 hour zoom poetry purge. back in the mountains to write, cayenne pepper in the eye - https://music.apple.com/us/album/island-song/475001822?i=475001897 11/22/2025 slow start - being besties with a bartender is a dangerous game. fun hanging out with you at the pokemon trade show this afternoon <3 - https://music.apple.com/us/album/wasting-my-young-years/695805771?i=695806051 11/21/2025 Pancake breakfast party! Chiro was spot on today. Running into dear old friends... - https://music.apple.com/us/album/all-my-stars-aligned/258197671?i=258199500 11/20/2025 "The color of the grey sky before the sun comes up" - I have to turn in my assignment but this is all I have... instead of writing let's go to the bowling alley tonight & drink white russians - https://music.apple.com/us/album/grey/1208772734?i=1208774514 11/19/2025 When the collection of vintage dictionaries does not have the word you are looking up... and you give up writing for life. - https://music.apple.com/us/album/voices-in-my-head-amelie-lens-remix-mixed/1816297431?i=1816297435 11/18/2025 I just want to go for a run, but still can't even walk without crutches. I guess I'll smoke the day away and read a book. - Didn't read, I just got high and cut my hair off... & was called mom for the first time ever in my life - crazy !! <3 you my international darling child :D - "Letting go of what you do not need will make you stronger." https://music.apple.com/us/album/1-800-call-me-back/1839208932?i=1839209282 11/17/2025 Just going out for a quick cocktail and salad turned into tequila shots with my bartender friends... Fun times xo 11/16/2025 This day was just what I needed to get me out of my pity party. Can still kinda dance with crutches! And dancing to Tycho in the rain is so fun. Thanks for all the laughing and onslought of mind altering subs. Some of y'alls knee injury horror stories - Fuk!! B, ur the best - you get things done "you got to protect your sensitive soul" thanks for the reminder <3 11/15/2025 Thanks for the brunch excursion. Fun talking Pokémon with your kid, can't wait for my fly fishing lessons this spring. Quick healing for your tonsil removal scabs. <3 https://music.apple.com/us/album/dive-deluxe-version/1490459058 11/14/2025 My neck cracked so good today. For the massage tips & encouragement - xo All day nap - ready for ladies night. Thanks for inviting me to the soup party - next time <3 11/13/2025 I am so sad that your cat died. Thank you for still bringing happiness, to my self inficted misery. I'll not be a downer next time - I promise. Talking Plato over pasta took my mind off everything. 11/12/2025 back to walking circles around the pool table. at least i should not feel bad for laying around reading... https://music.apple.com/us/album/love-can-damage-your-health-abicah-soul-dennis-ferrer/1636230858?i=1636230871 - R, thanks for cheering me up - definitely needed it. <3 11/11/2025 Fully lucid in last nights dreams. My earrings & rings kept falling off. On a beach, you played a really amazing DJ set, it was rad to see you - even if only in a dream. https://www.youtube.com/live/rrW19tPPhAw?si=oh4duQJG-DMydJpG maybe if the world ever equalizes - we'd finally get to hangout. - my knee went out just standing up - fuck me, back on crutches - i'm gonna barf. 11/10/2025 Fuck. I feel lighter. Crying and laughing with strangers. Sharing sentences & line breaks. I'm looking forward to next Sunday. - rainy day non-dance dance party https://music.apple.com/us/album/no-hard-feelings/1808081778 11/9/2025 I found some of your old letters, I wonder where you are in this world? Thinking of late night desert drives, parking lot yoga and speaking like pirates. "Shiver me timbers - look at that booty!" wow, we were so young. 11/8/2025 My chiropractor said I was a mess... but also said I looked very cool. - Some of you ladies have very bold pickup lines! Thanks for making me feel so special <3 11/7/2025 Happy Birthday Gbot. <3 Thank you for giving me the milky way. :) https://music.apple.com/us/album/pulse-2023-remaster/1741473742?i=1741473756 - Thank you Tori for the ice cream <3 11/6/2025 I think I've kicked my skittle addiction, my doctor is gonna be so proud. My addiction inspired this haiku: https://lindavigil.com/_haiku/fingers.html - Now to work on my other vices. - https://music.apple.com/us/album/something-of-an-end/1605085407?i=1605085575 11/5/2025 Me: "I just want be as cool as Björk." Husband: “You’re totally cooler then bork” - Packing - I need to get organized. It shouldn't take this long. - Some nice relaxing breakfast music :D https://music.apple.com/us/album/gato-negro/40582683 11/4/2025 The full moon tomorrow in Taurus and the Sun in Scorpio - help me please... Raging bull or the bull that stops to smell the flowers (it's the wrong season here for flowers). Respite needed, but my eyes are refusing to close. https://youtu.be/HiE8y3KeYsE?si=gIsBk0BPAMqkgMcZ 11/3/2025 Is it poetry or therapy? I'm wiped out 16 hours in. - Revision me over and over again until I'm rewired. - I've never been this ready for judgement. 11/2/2025 A letter in the mail from a new friend! For slow communication the letter got here rather quickly. You have now become one of my favorite people ever. The non-romantic romance of putting pen to paper. Now to write back and hobble my way to the post office. - 1st day of a 5 week poetry workshop. Almost 4 hours of purging live time - on zoom. I think it is just what the doctor ordered. Thanks Ani for the recommendation :) - And Nit, so glad on the accidental call - sorry I didn't get to talk to you more. I'm happy you are in love. Besos <3 - What a busy Sunday. Everyone scambling around trying to figure out the fucking time. 11/1/2025 Luxardo cherries and raw garlic are a very interesting mix of flavors. Wrote two poems when I woke up in the middle of the night, stressed about forgetting them and could not fall back to sleep - I should of just wrote them down instead of laying there like a mummy. I did remember when woke. 10/31/2025 “It’s a whole wide world out there.” “Yes, it is the width that scares me.” I'm not sure where this quote is from, but I liked it. Now that I think about it - I think it is from Daria. 10/30/2025 Advice I got today - "just be in love". Yes- it is that simple, right? 10/29/2025 "we have gone too far, and yet not nearly far enough." -Giacometti https://julianphilosophy.substack.com/p/giacometti-in-the-rain My brain is now in a neutral mood filled with another Nietzche talk: https://youtu.be/ixH8v_MogKQ?si=zmpD09dnWBLwfqoZ 10/28/2025 I've been time traveling my old journals and notes. Finding a spark - here is one of my favorites: https://youtu.be/h6HLTBwCFO0?si=MHkJshf5_JAYRnCE Got to love irony? 10/27/2025 Distracting my mind and body by deep diving Nietzsche. LOL... https://youtu.be/-oGqcvrGURc?si=SoymgbJD6H52hHJo https://youtu.be/xuDfzGaxOB4?si=HdolV-8K4qbYLg-H https://youtu.be/rTpmaVujcmc?si=V6AosxPsd0eSkw58 10/26/2025 writing love letters that will never be read 10/25/2025 - 8/28/2025 these posts have been redacted :) - https://music.apple.com/us/album/stalker/1506036662?i=1506036664 8/27/2025 Working on backlogging the content of this page. Come back soon to catch up. Listening to Fred again.. Actual Life https://music.apple.com/us/album/actual-life-april-14-december-17-2020/1560355896 4/20/2025 Happy 420 Jesus. Seriously, I am Thankful - for this day, for your love, for this life. Thank you for everything. 4/13/2025 Shorty is alive! 10 hours of sleep last night and I'm still tired as fuck. Summer plans already in a scamble, no Metric; (Kinda of glad not having to go to Seattle.) Raving at home - who knew that you could wear out faster than being there. 4/11/2025 To the zombies of Coachella you should show signs of life to the sets of Missy Elliott & The Prodigy. 4/4/2025 It is okay to cry. 4/01/2025 Back to reality. Out of slumber. Already ready for winter. A fun time was had at Treefort Festival in Boise Idaho. My body is in recovery from over stimulation. I'm sick as a dog again. Highlights: Maita, Prism Bitch, The Linda Linda's, Vundabar, Ethel Rose... so much music that it all blurred together. I crashed an electric scooter (whiskey+motorized=death) and I will have a scar on my knee to remind me of the fun times. Boise was a great town and will definetly return to visit our new friends. 3/01/2025 - 3/31/2025 A lot of stuff happened but I never updated this months web log... Move on to April <3 https://youtu.be/zoTwqsT7ZaU?si=nWTbQco99maQjON9 2/4/2025 Got the house warmed up again. Living in a woodheated only place takes a couple of days to heat up when being out of town when it gets sub zero. 2/01/2025 Snowboarding weekend - knocked my head pretty good from wiping out while just standing still. 1/14/2025 One of my resolutions was not to buy any cameras - but all i really want is a new camera. 1/03/2025 - 1/12/2025 Snowboarding & then really sick. Hanging out with friends. 1/01/2025 More birdwatching this year https://youtu.be/g02Ss3xgABc?si=Si3bPAZqO1_nEud3 12/28/2024 working on the last dried out projects of 2024 making embers last until the collective juices overflow following the regrets of this years last dying days promises of maybes bursting from what goodness is left in this world 12/23/2024 Communication. Playing telephone via modern day chat messages. Being witty, but just. 12/21/2024 I did not sleep very well, 74% awake all night I felt my feet starting to disconnect from my astal body I'm used to travelling while dreaming but this was different. 12/16/2025 Archiving. I lost a lot of data, or maybe purposely lost a lot of data. But then I had secret backups of that data. Now I have found my lost tiny treasures while clearing out all the bulk. What I thought was lost for years - really does not matter. Clear out your hard drives. Archive the most important. And then delete it all. 12/10/2024 got some kind of virus- food or water or human contacted. spending these recovery days sorting photographs & listening to http://mysteriousuniverse.org/ 12/08/2024 A puzzle of the epics. Almost solved. Ask yourself - "why is most of our time focused on these devices?" Also if you are making videos about off the grid living you are not living off the grid. 12/07/2024 Recap of this last week : Recovering. A day in bed after a random weekday pray for snow party. 24 hours of ridiculosness (30+ seasons crazy). Missed opening day but hey, I had a good time in recovery. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9XXtv4KrJPs Remembering talking to a olypimic silver medalist downhill ski racer and then another silver medal winner - no idea what we talked about but there was tons of laughing... Drinking multiple Manhattans = a blackhole in my mind. Thank god for greasy burgers & fries + NAC + activated charcoal + hydrogen water. I also think I made a new best friend with the guy wearing the softest sweater I have ever felt <3 sorry i don't remember your name :( 12/02/2024 Maps. I used to draw out the places I would dream about. Places that I would always return to. I need to start doing this again. 12/01/2024 Hi. AI <3 11/28/2024 Hibernaton- It has been a few years since my dog Coffee died, I get sadder every year. And now when my heart is open there is an onslaught of communication from everyone I do not want to talk to. I am in hibernation. I have been in hibernation. I will be in hibernation for the rest of my life. 11/24/2024 Why to block wikipedia: https://youtu.be/-vmSFO1Zfo8?si=FDZa7gJzqgAJAxw2 https://mysteriousuniverse.org/2024/01/29.03-MU-Plus-Podcast-The-Skeptic-Cabal/ add this to all your searches -site:wikipedia.org 11/17/2024 Intereting take on history, which I'd like to deep dive into. https://youtu.be/K5w-nyqFzM8?si=UXbVTA35PwJO2bDs https://youtu.be/ZXHfKlAS6S8?si=ZdDpJDZG0P0gBvim 11/13/2024 I've become addicted to Pokemon Pocket TCG. What a waste of time :) 11/8/2024 Nursing my love back to health after a fun night of dancing. 16 eye pressure. 11/7/2024 Happy Birthday Mr.G <3 11/6/2024 emotion as reality. don't be food for a system that you don't believe in. 11/4/2024 thought of the day - a baked potato with ketchup. 11/3/2024 Spent 5 minutes on my old "X" account what a waste of five minutes. 11/2/2024 Very interesting. I knew about 60% of what is discussed, from my years of scenic web & book crawling. https://youtu.be/SiBFtwbyv44?si=bP9Y6HxnSKaZ-OmZ 11/1/2024 Trying to find meaning. It is as easy as looking up the definition of a word. Authentic: adjective not false or copied; genuine; real: A couple of videos popped up in my feed which referenced this word. https://youtu.be/xXoPcyz84Wg?si=MpfhJcLVt1xP26_- https://youtu.be/_18IyU3bIpM?si=9JTTqPAGcdEPCCF4 10/31/2024 Spending every other minute of time worrying about a wild animal, a creature of the forest until your stress levels are out of the atmosphere. I need to chill the fuck out. If you read this - send protection vibes to 'Bucky Stantler' 10/30/2024 The luxury of changing your mind. It is possible... Was it desire or hypnosis? Ironic that this song sums it all up. https://music.apple.com/us/album/untouchable-face/1208780857?i=1208781124 10/29/2024 A couple of interesting videos I just watched https://youtu.be/ZxZO0jd8VoU?si=EmHL0m5H3ztd9hOW https://youtu.be/Ozgykl3RCxk?si=YTkx2vwtur1IfDdW 10/27/2024 It is a war zone out there. The second day of hunting season and my dearest deer friend has survived this day until sunset. I said goodnight to 'Bucky Stantler' just before sunset. A halo of sun shining around him creating the aura of his title of the king of the forest. 7 more weeks of daily hopes and prayers that I see him again. 10/26/2024 why is everything so bland now? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_8ZCzhoeQMg 10/23/2024 I am obsessed with this song right now. MAITA - breakup song x3 https://youtu.be/R6fEA-RPMlo?si=nRVCTBEvoklDwieN the last part of this song is FAB: " you tell me that you wish i'd pulled you into my garage pushed you up against the wall took exactly what i want but i don't know what i want i don't know what i want i don't know what i want i don't know what to take from you don't know what to take from you don't know what to take from you don't know what to take cause i don't know what i want i don't know what i " 'FRASNY' is archived randomly for safety concerns...
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